HAHAHA gusto ko mag drop ng name ng mga lalaking sumawi sa heart ko. char! joke! baka katayin ako ng kanilang girlfriend at asawa. HAHA oo some of them got happily married. They are lucky thou. But certainly diko sinasabi na gusto ko na magasawa utang na loob kakasabi ko lang na mahirap magmahal syuta!
Sad? ako ba? feeling ko kase di naman ako sad. Hinahanap ko lang talaga si dopamine. I really like that. I am in the middle of my mind na I want to give up to something that doesn't exist. I really want to laugh, but wierd sya kapag nilagay ko dito, para kayong robot na nagbabasa diba? I really want to express my feelings, if you read this I miss you!
Sino kaya yun? intriga diba? well, let's go back to my brain. Ang panget pala nung last update ko like yung chapter na andaming mali? nabored akong basahin and antamad i edit. well lets focus onto this matter char. My life is kinda weird. I want to finished college agad! please lang if there is a machine I wish, I can work na. its all about money you fellas. all the things I hate is money and time. I suck alright? I want to throw some tantrums but what for?
I am not hurt nor happy, I am not also confuse nor focus. I am plain useless. The matter that you are in the middle of nothing you can't think of something. Sa tingin mo ba resulta yan ng pagod mo, or give up kana sa buhay. Being emotionless is a result of something you can't accept. but the difference is I am aware of every thing. I can control my feelings, but I choose them to let it out and not conceal it. Why? because why not? that is my life after all.
I don't know what to do nor what to say. I don't understand but I think I give up. Can I say that? this book is not what I imagine but this is what it should be used. my emotion, opinions, and thoughts are not accurate, so are you. We are all the same, maybe we are bound to be like this but for you, you may have a choice to fix yourself.
This kind of story or whatever it is, is a piece can be reflective of what do you want to say. It is very funny that I wrote this in tagalog but ending up in English. I am tired of fighting things that I know I can't win. What is it? my fate. I am secure on what is my fate. I have my dream of writing about the fate that I have. I even dream that I announce that I am a Muslim, yeah!
It doesn't matter who I am in the first place but the important is what is in this book. I am not oppressing religions here. It is about my brain and my thoughts just add some of my life story, struggles and failures. they are worth it to read. why? because you may learn something that is awful to think. I am transparent here. My mistakes may not be directed but the idea is there. I may share some wisdom but I don't considered it as effective as the philosophers. hey! remember the world is changing darling!
My hands are nonstop writing my thoughts, it's decoding what its thinking, and also what its talking. I am not good in things but I am hoping I am. I am already useless but somehow I want to be hopeful. People are easily be swayed on what is trend so lets trend what is good.
I am not fluent and good in Language but give me sometime to improve, just be patient. All we need is time. It is very precious to a person to a given time and patient.
Lets not focus on what is on your watch, lets focus on things that may affect on you. ahh tigil ko muna to. Last month pa ata tong update.
