Irresponsible

Drunk Texts.

Ash's POV

I glanced around at my living room from my stairs.I sipped my drink and took in all of the faces,there was at least thirty.I liked everyone here they weren't like the others at school,most of them were gay or they were allies.I was zoned out thinking about what must be going through Sarah's mind.I took another drink of my drink,finishing it off.I could see Elias stumble out of the kitchen into my view and he was glancing around the room.His eyes landed on me and he smiled widely and waved me towards him.
"ASH!SHOTS!GET YOUR ASS IN HERE!!"He yelled barely audible above the crowd.I smiled and sat up as I walked towards him.He latched onto me and we stood next to the bar.Elias's 'friend' poured six shots and looked at him smirking.The tension was so thick in the room I couldn't help but laugh as he backed up.Elias looked at me smiling.
"Ready?"I asked shaking my shoulders.He nodded as he grabbed his and I did the same.
"Go."The guy said.We both downed the first one with ease.At this point it started to taste like water.We took down the rest with me slamming my last one down as he picked his up and did the same.He shook his head aggressively and shivered.I laughed at his reaction.I glanced down at my phone and suddenly got the urge to text Sarah.
'Better not.'I hiccuped.I put a cigarette to my lips and lit it,just after I felt someone tap my shoulder.I furrowed my brows and put the cigarette in between my fingers.I looked down and saw Ally,Elias's sister and also my ex.
"Can we talk?"She asked softly,to which I nodded.
'I know where this is going but I don't care. I'm drunk.'
I followed her up stairs to my room.I sat down on my bed as she leaned against the door when she locked it.
"I thought you just wanted to talk?"I asked smirking.She walked over smiling.She stopped right in front of me and I looked up at her as I trailed my hands down her waist.She pulled my head back with her hand as she slowly sat on my waist.I smirked as I flipped her over and stared at her.
'Her beautiful melanin skin shone in the moons light.'I ran my hand down her stomach as she pulled her shirt off.I reached for the hem of mine and slowly lifted it.She was biting her lip and staring at me.I grabbed her chin and pulled her to look at me.
"My eyes are up here."I said raspy,before I knew it she pulled me back down.She leaned in and I slightly leaned back smiling,just before she could complain I locked our lips.I slowly lowered my lips to her neck and began placing small purple spots along her collarbone.She flipped us and did the same to me.I immediately flipped back on top and began making my down to her waist band.
*Time skip*
I fell asleep facing opposite of her towards the wall.I have no feelings towards her.
'I just had sex and I still feel nothing.'
I sighed and looked outside to see the sun coming up.I stood up and went to the bathroom and locked the door.I quickly got a shower and got out to put my bottoms and bra back on.I looked in the mirror to see my toned stomach and neck covered in hickeys.I smirked and walked out,she was reaching toward my side only to realize I wasn't there.She looked up at me when I put a pair of black sweats on and my converse.She came up behind me and pushed my hair out of my eyes.
"I always loved your hair."She said raspy as she laid her head on my chest.I glanced out the window and averted my gaze.
"Really?I mean i've always wanted to cut it."I smiled.
"Then do it.Do what makes you happy Ash."She smiled then her face faded as she walked away and started getting dressed.I felt like a terrible person.
"Hey you can borrow something from me to wear.That looks miserable to have to wear to school."She gave a soft smile and nodded.
"Thanks."I slipped my hoodie on and my necklace.I didn't believe in God I just liked the way it looked.I walked to my mirror and put my hair into a messy bun.I turned around to see her in the outfit I wore yesterday.I smiled as I walked over.
"I can't lie.You do pull it off better."She smirked and stood up.She reached her hand out to me and I intertwined our fingers.
"Of course I do."I laughed making her laugh.
"What does this mean?"She asked looking down at our hands.I sighed.
"Um.I don't know.I mean I don't need any commitment right now because of lacrosse,but I promise to keep in touch."I smiled grabbing my lax bag and school bag.I waved bye and walked out.
"You said that last time."I heard her say sadly.
'Yep I felt like an asshole.'
To add to the effect I still had to clean,and I also had a massive hangover.I walked into the kitchen and took some tylenol from with an almost empty bottle of Svedka.I felt something hit my ankle.I looked down and saw Elias face down next to three empty bottles.I laughed as I leaned down.
"Elias time to wake up buddy~"He immediately sat up and looked around eyes wide.
"What time is it?!"He asked standing up looking for his clothes.
"Not even seven yet chill out."When I said that I looked to my side and saw Ally averting my gaze.
"Hey Eli!Im driving to school you coming."She said with arms crossed,just then I heard the front door open I looked over and saw Isaac staring at me.Just then Eli popped out holding his clothes and shoes in one arm.
"Found em they were by the pool!"He said smiling as he looked at me then his smile fell and he blushed when he saw Issac.
"Hey guys?Um i'm gonna go now okay."Issac said smirking as he hit my shoulder.I looked at Elias with my jaw hanging.He immediately grabbed Ally and walked out.
"Bye Ash see you at school!"I just smiled and waved.
I pulled out my phone to see I had a few missed texts from Sarah.My brows furrowed as I walked out the door.
"Are you kidding me?"I looked at my phone seeing all of the texts I sent last night.
'What?!When did I even send them?!'I rubbed my eye and began walking to school.
'Another long day ahead.'