Irresponsible

Interrupted.

Ash's POV
(Authors note:Uhmmmm so I have no idea how to end this.I started this when I was in a bad place and now I have no motivation to continue it,but hey I've made it this far might as well give it an ending.)
⚠️suicide mentions,substance⚠️

I stared at them,taking in their every detail.I saw Moe approach me,I held my arms open for an expected hug instead I was met with a stinging sensation across my face.

"Fuck.Guess I deserve that too."I grabbed my cheek and looked up to see them look at me with hurt expressions.Eli glanced between me and Sarah before holding his hands up and scoffing.

"I can't believe this bullshit."

"Eli please hear me out."He met my stare and looked at me in disbelief.

"Are you serious?Hear you out?You died!I mourned you for three fucking years!You can't just show up and expect me to be all happy to see you.Your so selfish!"I felt a pit in my stomach grow.Moe stayed quiet before finally saying.

"Why?Why did you do it?"She said as her voice broke.

"I-"The doors swung open  and out walked all of the audience.Before I could finish my sentence my agent grabbed my shoulder and walked off with me.

"I'll make it right!I promise!"I yelled out to them through the crowd.When I faced my agent I jerked my arm away.

"The.Fuck.Margaret?!You can't just yank me away while I'm in the middle of a conversation."She stared at me a moment before laughing.

"There's the fire in you I've missed!Have you been using again?"I froze before twitching my nose.

"No.I just.."

"Whatever it is keep it up.Anyways you and the cast are supposed to give some words and considering your a fan favorite they thought you should go first."I didn't even have time to think before I was thrown up to the mic facing the crowd.I felt my stomach turn as I searched for other.I saw them at the edge of the left and gulped.

'Now or never Ash.'I clenched my eyes before looking up and smiling.

"Hello~.What a lovely audience.Alright either you all loved the movie or your just happy to see me."The crowd laughed and some people cheered my name.I feel like throwing up.I met their gaze again and my smile fell before I picked the mic up.

"Hey everybody.I have an important announcement."The crowd went quiet.

"Most of you know me as Delia Goode,Spanish actress born and raised in Madrid but...that's not me."I met Sarah's scared face and only smiled in reassurance.

"My name isn't Delia Goode.Im not from Spain."The crowd murmured and shot each other confused glances.

"Goode!The hell are you doing?!"Margaret shouted at me I brushed her off and kept eye contact with Sarah.

"My name is Ashlyn Miller I'm from Oceanside California.I learned Spanish when I was ten years old from some culture appreciation guide in elementary."I laughed and felt a huge weight leave my chest.I stared at Sarah and she smiled weakly.Eli and Moe wore soft expressions.

"I left the states three years ago.Leaving my friends,no I left my family and the love of my life.Im so sorry guys.I know I'm making a huge spectacle of myself which is a major dick move but I didn't know what else to do.I don't know how much time I have-"I felt someone rip the mic from my hands and I turned to see my agent staring me down.

"Your a useless junkie!I should have never signed you to begin with!Alright folks I think it's time for everyone to head home.-"A loud bang echoed from behind the stage.
You would think survival instincts would have kicked in and I would have bolted.But no I just stood there frozen,as I felt the heavy feeling in my stomach fade replaced with a warm,and wet sensation.I scanned the crowd for any sign of her.My eyes landed on the blonde almost right in front of me as I fell to the ground she wrapped me in her arms.I saw Eli sprint behind me,to where I assume the source came from.I felt a tear hit my cheek and I looked up to be met with Sarah crying and holding my face.She was talking to me but I didn't understand. I everything was a blur why was Sarah crying and holding me.I wasn't hurt I think?I don't feel pain?
'I wasn't shot.Right?I couldn't have been.'
I glanced down to see my white suit now stained a deep red.My eyelids grew heavy and I felt a hand tug at the side of my face.