Purdy love? (boyxboy)

short chapter

This chapter will be short because the next chapter will be the longest one yet! So be excited!!
Ashley POV~

"Breakfast?" I ask Andy as he walks out rubbing his eyes. Tired. "No thank you" he says and walk straight out to the balcony lighting himself a cigarette and smoking. He stands there in obvious thought. My phone rings and CC's contact goes along the screen "hello?" I ask confused to why he is calling me. "Put Andy on" he snaps. I am about to ask why is but then I remember Andy's phone is broken. I don't answer and walk outside. I open the door scared of him. He of course hears me and turns around raising an eyebrow. "CC" I say and hand him the phone. Retreating before he can say anything. He nods his head once then shakes it with an annoyed look on his face then says something. I do my best to lip read. He nods his head again and then says bye. And then walks in. He gives me the phone "thank you" I say barely above a whisper. "Should we talk?" He says after a silence, "dear god yes!" I say breaking out of my silence shell. I offer the couch but he shakes his head and sits on the floor. We sit in utter silence for a moment. "Andy I-" he holds his hand up to stop me I of course do exactly that "you can say sorry and that you love me all you like but that...isn't gonna make my heart feel better" he says. I lay back and think. "Tell me Ashley, if you walked into that place and saw me there like that, your reaction?" He says and takes a breath "what would it be?" He asks and stares at me, he was crying last night I can tell. "I-I" I want to say something but the truth is. I don't know what I would do I really don't he raises an eyebrow waiting then drops his arms. "I don't want to finish this..what we hav-had" he sighs. "But I don't know if I can, I really don't what if this type of thing happens again?" He says "I really don't know if I can turn away from..." He trails off. I know he is talking about relapse and I know he knows. "Andy if I could ever just show you how much you mean to me...." I say he just sits there no emotion is shown on his face. "I want to be with you so bad" he says and chokes out tear and how desperately do I want to reach over and just wipe away his tears hug him until he can't breath but I know the reason he is crying is because of my stupidity and I have to fix this. "I seriously cannot believe how much this hurts" he cries more. I feel a familiar lump in my throat as I'm about to cry. "I'm gonna leave you be" I say and I get up. He doesn't look up he doesn't nod in understanding he just allows it to happen and I must admit it did make me feel worse. "I might stay in a hotel for a week or so because you need to think" I say and I walk out. I don't get clothing or anything I just get my wallet and jacket because I myself need enough time I think aswell...