Purdy love? (boyxboy)

ASH

ASHLEY POV-
-5 years on-
I'm alone, I never realized I was alone until a week away from my family....and...Andy. I don't know how he took this at all. They're still on my mind every day. When I go to sleep I can only think about Andy, when I'm with the other people I call "friends" can only think of my family. I remember their faces so clearly. I remember it all. And I regret it a little bit more. But I know I cannot turn back anymore there is no going back. Andy probably has a new boyfriend and it wouldn't shock me if they were married with adopted kids either. It makes my happy in the heart to even think Andy has a new love. He is happy at last. If I do ever see Andy again I will make sure his new love has never made him cry like I did too many times. I don't even know if I was missed to much, I can't say that I don't think I was because I was missed but how much was I missed is always in mind. It's too late, I cannot say I deserve to crawl back to them, it's too late.

I was in my apartment. I had just woken up and I was looking for some people to play in my band 'orgasm' on Craigslist. I found this one group dudes from a band called 'black veil brides' they sound alright so I contacted someone from it thinking that if they are alright I could steal some members from there. A tired sounding man answered the phone. "Hello?" He voice says tiredly. "Hello I'm from Craigslist and I heard you were looking for a bassist" a thump comes from the other end and the guy is now wide awake. "Where are you, when do you want to audition?!" The guy yelled. "LA" I reply. Yep that's right, I'm back in LA because it simply made me happier to even be in the same city as everyone else. "Do you want to audition at like 2:30pm?!" The guy yells. God he sounds so happy, reminds me of CC 'shut up Ashley' my brain tells me off. I nod then remember I'm on the phone "sure" I say after slapping my forehead in idiotic way.

2:30 rolls around and I'm out front of this big house with a big garage. I knock on the door and hold my bass as confidently as I can, it's the one Andy gave me, it's like a good luck charm for me.

I hear laughs then a crash come from the inside. I knock again then check my phone to see if I even have the right address. The door is swung open by someone, I haven't looked up yet simply because I'm scared of what this man looks like. "Hey are you here to audition?!" The guys says. I nod "come in" he says and I feel his hand on my back, it feel a little familiar but I won't think to far into it. I look up when I'm sure that nobody is around except the guy that I know is behind me. I look around. This house feels so homely and smells really nice. "Get your asses down into the garage, he's here!" The guys yells. I cannot get the itching familiar feel out if my head, he guides me into the garage. "Ah, shit I forgot to ask your name!" He laughs. Then it's silence I guess this is the part where I answer. "Ashley" I say in a high pitched voice, I'm very worried. "I used to have a really close friend named Ashley, I don't know where he is anymore, but he also played bass" he says as if he's reminiscing. It clicks in my head who this is. Jake. I smile to myself just being happy that I know they're doing well. I didn't realize that jake was still talking about me though "I hope he's okay though, we really miss him, and it's been 5 years!" He laughs sadly. "Sorry dude my name is jake" he says noticing that he hasn't told me yet. "Hey jakey" I whisper. "Sorry" jake asks. I am about to reveal my face when someone bursts into the room. CC. "Where is my husband!" CC screams and then I hear a thump. They're married, and I missed it. Jinxx is next and is accompanied by a beautiful woman. "This is CC and jinxx, CC is my husband and Alice is jinxxes fiancé" jake introduces. "We had a friend named Ashley" CC tells me. "I was just thinking that" says jinxx. I'm too afraid to look up. I can't do this. I'm an idiot. "I hope Andy doesn't..." Jinxx trails off. My heart drops. Andy was sad. What happened to my bab- THUMP THUMP THUMP

"Here's Andy!" Announces CC with a laugh. "Hey guys who's this?" Andy's deep voice makes my stomach do flips. I feel myself blushing. "Maybe our new bassist" says jake. "What's your name dude?" Andy says collapsing next to me. "Ashley" I squeaked. I'm scared of him. What if he's angry, what if he hates me. "Oh" he says he seems to be thinking. "Right let's see how this is!" Yells Alice obviously noticing the new silence in the room, which used to be very rare. I look down at my bass guitar case that hold the bass Andy got for me. I feel sick. They're about to find out. I unzip it and pull It out.