𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐄𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 ◇ ChanLix

Ch. 42

Chan POV

When Felix saw me he let go of Daehyun and stood up to leave me alone with him.

Now that I knew what was really going on it felt so simple. How had I not connected those dots?

I felt terrible about how Dae dealt with that kn his own and how Felix found out like this.

This whole situation seemed to be my fault. Ii should have been there for him, I should have tried harder, I should have known.

I held him flesh to my chest as he seemed to cry on forever always sobbing about how he was sorry.

Sorry for lying, for going behind my back, for not telling me, for not listening the list goes on much longer than it should.

Hes not to blame for any of this, it's all her fault. She's the one who lied and manipulated him to get her way.

"She said you would be happy- I'm sorry!" His cried were muffled by the fabric of my shirt.

"It okay. Everything is okay, we can sort this out." I whispered to him, I don't even know if he heard.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry- please don't leave!" He gripped on to my shirt and back tightly like he thought I might just up and walk away.

Did he really think I would be angry towards him about this? Could he not see that it was anybody but his fault?

"I'm awful I know, but please don't leave!" He cried harder, "I need you, please don't go-" he choked on his tears.

I held onto him tighter and stroked his hair while I stared blankly at the wall infront of me.

Tears were welling in my own eyes and I found it hard to keep composure. I didn't want him to know this made me cry.

He'd think it was the fact that Dae-Shin came back, bit in reality, it's the fact that he thinks I would leave.

I would never let him go, he means the world to me and I would do anything to keep him by my side.

At this point, if he asked me to his Dae-Shin over the head with a wooden board filled with nails to keep him happy I would.

I doubt he even had to ask.

The amount that the fact that she manipulated him like that made me mad beyond words.

I had so many emotions and thoughts running through my head, but all I could really understand at the moment was that Dae was crying.

He was hurt and pain and I was the one who needed to help him, not Dae-Shin.

No matter how much she though he needed her, he would always be my baby boy not hers.

I taught him how to ride a bike, I taught him manners I taught him multiplication. I was the one he came to when he had a bad dream.

Not her.

She was no where to be found for 11 fucking years and now she's coming back like she was there all along.

"I'm not gonna leave. Never. I'll be here by your side until the day I die." I said quietly into his ear.

I know he heard it because he inhaled a sharp breath and gripped my shirt harder.

Daehyun POV

This was awful, and, all my fault.

If I hadn't been so stupid as to think that maybe daddy still wanted to be with Dae-Shin rather than Felix this would never have happened.

I would have told her to reach out to daddy or simply told him in the first place what was going on.

These past 4 months have been hell because I was so stupid as to think this could really work.

Not to mention that I probably just lost Felix and Min because I tried to break him and Chan up.

They would both hate me. There goes the only friend that I could manage to keep around.

It almost felt like anybody who ever really cared about me were slipping from my fingertips.

I tried to hold on to daddy tighter so he didn't slip away as well but the feeling didn't leave.

It was like I was slowly sinking away from all of them down into a dark sea of water. It was like I was being suffocated.

I couldn't breath. Daddy was going to be gone as soon as I let him go. He would disappear and leave.

I wanted- no, I needed him around. Headed me loved and welcomed and I still managed to push him away.

"I'm sorry!" I felt myself say. I had no control anymore, apologies just spewed from my mouth like vomit.

If he left I would be nothing. He made me me and I loved him. He used to love me as well.

Be kept saying he wouldn't leave but how was I supposed to believe that? Look at what I had done.

I'd gone and messed everything up. I gave Dae-Shin everything she needed at the raise of her voice.

She scared me, yet I still want her around. She was supposed to be nice and love daddy the way I did.

Instead she made him mad. I wish this had never happened.

I shut my eyes close as hard and I could and tried to hold my breath.

"Breath baby.. it's okay."

The lent up air came rushing from my lungs at at the same time, so did the tears.

A loud sob left my mouth and I didn't even realize it was me until daddy held me closer.

We held eachother so tight it felt nearly impossible that he could leave, but it was inevitable.

I couldn't let go. I wanted these moments to last forever, no matter how sad they were. He was my dad, and no one could change that.

Not even her...

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