Affection {a Monika x Yuri fanfiction}

Chapter 4: Happy Pills

A QUICK NOTE: So just to explain things this chapter will be more of a Sayori focussed chapter. But don't worry! Yuri and Monika will still be included.(And by the way if you like Sayori this chapter isn't for you!)

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Sayori POV

I have trouble breathing. I feel so numb. I don't want to open my eyes. Not again.  Another day for me to wake up for. Another day to live through. Am I even living or just in deep sleep at this point? What's the pint? Things would be so much better if...No. I can stay strong! For MC. I've got to. I'm doing this.

I quickly wake up in a cold sweat. Few! Seems like I was just in deep sleep after all. I slept in my school clothes, I should change them...Whatever. theres no point. I'll just just do the same thing tonight. And again tomorrow. Just cry myself to sleep and forget to change my clothes before going to sleep. And It's late again. Why am I just a lazy failure?

I feel a tear rolling down my cheek. And another one. And another. i'm such a loser. Why would anyone ever want to hang out with me? What I basically do is cry all day and watch depressing anime with depressed characters just so I could relate to them. I don't understand how MC can enjoy spending time with me. Does he only enjoy pretend to enjoy my company? Aren't I annoying?

I go over to my desk. I realise that the Antidepressives that I was looking for weren't on my desk. I soon realise that I stepped on something. It felt like a soft piece of candy. I pick it up and I realise that it was one of the pills. I also find the Antidepressives box where all of the other pills where. I'm not sure how they ended up on the floor...

I pick up the box of pills. There they are! My happy pills! I like to call them happy pills since they are antidepressives. I take one of the pills and put it in a glass of water. I drink the water along with the pill inside of it as fast as possible. Since the pills don't taste good I put them in a glass of water so if I just swallow the pill without water I would spit it out due to how disgusting it tastes.

Of course I can still feel how disgusting the pill tastes even if I drink water but if I want to stay happy than this is the right thing for me! 

I walk out of the front door. I see that MC just left and forgot about walking with me...again. Why does it hurt me so much? I shouldn't be upset about this since I swallowed the pill. Guess the pill doesn't work after all. I slowly take a deep breath and call out to him. "Heeeeeeeeeeeeeyy!" I wave my arms around, trying to get MC,s attention.

Come on happy pills! You better work because I can't let him know! To be honest I can't let anyone know what I'm going through. MC sighs and lets me catch up with him. He looks embarrassed. He's always been my friend.... But sometimes I wonder if I'm just a burden to him. I finally catch up to him. "I overslept again! But I caught you like always..."

"Yeah...sure..." He runs his arm through his beautiful silky brown hair. I already know that he was trying to annoy me as best as possible. Does he really hate me that much? "Thanks you waiting for me..ehehe.."

"Y-yeah...whatever.." He looks away embarrassed by how many people were looking at us. Soon all of people that were staring at us later ignore us and continue their daily lives."So! What do you think of the club so far?" He scratches the back of his head. To me it seems like he's gonna say 'I like it so far but it would be a better experience without you!'

But instead he says: "I really like it! It seems like cozy place to be at."

"Well I'm glad you like it MC!" I giggle showing my brightest smile.But I should seriously just stop taking. I'm wasting his time. We cross the street together and make our way to school. There are so many people around us. I feel like they're all looking at me. And MC just walks in front of me as if nothings wrong. I can't blame him.