consequences of memories

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Kim Chaewon's POV.

"I think I know where she is." I left my food and stood up.

I think I know where Minju is.

"Woah Woah. What's with the rush? Are you okay, Chaewon Unnie?" Yujin held my arms as she almost bumped into me while I was making my way out of the packed cafeteria.

"Y-Yeah. I need to go." I said and hurried past a group of people. Not even bothering to apologize for bumping into them.

The squad just stared at me, astonished about me acting weird. Well, I don't blame them, really. I've been awfully quiet then the next second I'm being like this, looking all agitated and worried.

I marched towards the library in hopes of finding her there. Minju loved reading novels and I know she goes here whenever she's free. I entered the room and freaked out when I couldn't see not even one soul in here. but when I scanned the area and there I saw a brown-haired girl reading a novel called 'paper towns' at the corner of the room.

"She's still into John Green," I said to myself as I watch her focusing on the book that she was reading. She even had her left hand supporting her head.

I slowly walked towards her.

"Kim Minju," I called for her name. She paused what she was reading and looked at me, surprised to see me in front of her. "What are you doing here, It's lunchtime." I sounded a bit peeved.

"It's none of your business." She irritatedly came back to what she was reading.

"I'm pretty sure you're hungry. Go to them, they're looking for you." I patiently said tried to lower her book with my hands.

"I'm not hungry." She and slapped my hands away.

"I know you are. You can't fool me, Kim Minju. Stop being so stubborn and eat lunch." I took breathe and tried to make my patience longer.

"Seriously. Why the fuck do you care? Who the fuck do you think you are?" She slammed the book on the table with so much anger.

It triggered something in me.

"Yeah, right. Silly me, we don't know each other." I paused for a second. "But you..." I pointed at her "You're so selfish, aren't you? You're the one who asked for this but now, you're doing everything to avoid me? What the fuck, Minju?" I said with so much resentment.

My words hit her. I didn't want to hurt her but she's so unfair.

"DO YOU REALLY FUCKING THINK THAT YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE THAT'S HURT? I'm hurting too, Minju. It hurts so fucking much but I ignored the pain. I agreed to your request because I thought it's what you really wanted, I thought you really needed it but how come your actions say otherwise? PLEASE STOP PLAYING GAMES, MINJU-YAH. THIS HURTS A LOT." I felt remorseful.

She couldn't even utter a word.

"Do you seriously think that all this time I wasn't hurting? SHE WAS MY FRIEND TOO. I LOST MY FRIEND TOO BUT I ACTED LIKE I WAS FINE BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO WORRY YOU. I THOUGHT I NEEDED TO ACT STRONG FOR  THE BOTH OF US. I THOUGHT YOU NEEDED ME." I said, wiping the tears off my face.

Her face softened when she saw me cry but quickly came back to what it was before.

"Did I ask for that?" She snapped.

"YOU KNOW WHAT, I FUCKING HATE YOU," I said and stormed out of the library. I don't even care if she's hurt by what I said.

My tears were making my visions blurry, I felt my shoulders colliding with someone else's.