I have been trying to keep active and lead a healthy lifestyle, I did easy chores, washing dishes, cooking, cleaning my room, organize clothes and etc.
I even keep doing simple exercise with exercise bike indoor and walking with Leo at the park in evening. Make sure I did walking at least 2km per day.
I tried my best to reduce my day nap even I am so sleepy. So, I can have better sleep at night. But, this is not easy, I am so tired, but I can't seem want to sleep at night. It worse when I tried not to sleep at daytime, and I still can't sleep at night. So, I will take the sleeping pill for once or twice per week to make sure at least I will get sleep for couple of nights per week. Thus, I still sleeping a lot during day time 🥴
Doing chores and exercise actually fatigue me, I may be better for couple of days doing everything like normal. Then, suddenly one day, I can't wake up doing anything because I have no energy at all. I always feel why I am so lazy this day, but actually I can't move. Sometimes it takes only a day, sometimes for few days. After that fatigue syndrome passed, I am better again and doing my normal routine at the house.
In the past, when I forced my self to keep working or doing task when my fatigue control my body, I started to become emotionally sensitive, I will get angry, I will cry, I will have bad thought and I will make mistakes. My car always bumps into something when I have to keep driving in that condition. That's why my car is not in her best shape now and I would not going to fix the scratches since it happened too often.
Therefore, I stopped driving too far, and only drive when I have well rested. I also will just rest if the fatigue come, I don't want to get angry and hurt other people by my words. I also don't want to be sad and having the bad thought.
I am trying my best to be active, to be a diligent person. However, I still have this fatigue syndrome that forbid me to be like that. Maybe I just give my excuse to have more rest since I just a lazy person. Nevertheless, I am trying to stop being lazy and trying to be better.
