Secret Series #1 Hall Of Fame [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER 18

Life is hard. Full of clues. Full of exams. Obviously, hindi ako pumasok ng klase. Kung noon nagawa kong mag-cutting class, ngayon nagawa ko na ang mag-absent.  At kung noon masayang alaala, ngiti, at tawa ang dala ko. Ngayon, tanging bulaklak ang meron ako.

"I'm here, Cait," I placed the flower near her tombstone. "I missed you so much."
Alam ko namang wala na sya. I know she couldn't speak back. Never at all.

"I already felt so much pain, Cait. I can't handle it anymore. And how could I trust them again if they are mistrusted already?"
Umupo ako sa harap nya. That ambivalent of mine felt sorry for everything.

"Sorry if ngayon lang kita napuntahan. Your family didn't allow me to see you during your interment ceremony. Sorry and rest in peace, Cait." Wanting to stop everything, but my mind says, DO IT AGAIN. And I saw the clarity from those words. I need another chance from heaven.

Bahagya akong tumayo.

"Ashleigh." Isang pamilyar na boses ang nagpalingon sa akin.

"What are you doing here?" Tanong ko sa walang gana.

"We need to talk."
I started to walk. He grabbed my forearm. Humarap ako sa kanya.

"Ang sabi mo sa akin poprotektahan mo ako. Pero anong nangyari, Rain?"

"Ashleigh." He slowly holds my hand. His voice began to melt.

"I know the truth," sabi ko habang nakatitig sa kanya.

"I'm sorry," sagot nya at yumuko.

"But you lied to me."

"Yes. I know."

"Kailangan pa ba kitang pagkatiwalaan?"

"Please, Ashleigh," he raised his eyes and looked on me. "Forgive me."
Nangungusap ang kanyang mga mata, asking for second chance.

"Kailangan ba?"
I saw his teary-eyes, his tamed face, his braveless look. Ibang Rain ang nakikita ko sa kanya.

"Let me explain, Ash," holding my hand, inalis ko iyon agad.

"Ano pa ba ang ipapaliwanag mo, Rain? Paano mo ipapaliwanag ang isang bagay ngayong alam ko na ang totoo? Believe me Rain, I really trust you. But you didn't do the same."
He remained silent.

"Know what, Rain? You make me fool."

"I know I was wrong," giit n'ya. "The guilt was still inside of me."

"Sana hindi ako nagtiwala sa'yo, Rain. Sana." Tinalikuran ko sya at akmang aalis.

"Please, Ash. Stay with me." Humarap sya sa akin.

"I'm willing to pay anything, everything as you wanted. But please, don't go. Don't leave me at all, Ash. Stay with me." Puno ng pagmamakaawa ang kanyang bawat salita. At kung gaano ako nagmakaawa sa harap ni Sky, gano'n din ang ginawa ni Rain sa akin.

"I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do." Umalis akong hindi sya nililingon. I saw myself as vanish, useless. Sobra akong nasaktan dahil sobra rin naman ang aking pagtitiwala. I'm broke INSIDE and I'm totally die OUTSIDE. Unexplainable feelings. So damn!

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R A I N

Chillin' at my old friend's Disco Bar with myself, alone. Unlike L.C Bar, mas maraming hot babes dito. There's more fun either.