Love Isn't Enough (L.I.E)

Ch. 18: Reality Has Set In

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I know it's been a while, but I've been extremely busy. Here's a little something for y'all. It's just a lil something for y'all while I conjure up some greatness.

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Kourtney

It's been a few weeks since Aug & I came back from Nola. I got the chance to bond with August's family on a higher level and it felt good to be accepted by them. Especially because I never really had any family growing up besides my mom. I fell in love with his nieces and Cha and I couldn't be any closer. You'd think we knew each other longer than just a few days. Ms. Sheila is such a good woman and she has accepted me. All weekend long, she threw hints of pregnancy and possible grand children. I never told her I was pregnant and Aug told me he's never said anything to her. But Mama Shei-Shei knows.

In about 3 months, they are all going to move to Atlanta with everyone. Aug has already purchased a home for them and Mama Sheila just out her home up for sale. So I'm definitely looking forward to that.

Since I've been back, we told the news to Sal, Trav and Gary. Salina was super excited that she started crying and Trav was super happy for us. Gary grilled August for about 4 hours straight, telling him to be more of a man than he was when he had me. I respected their talk and it made me feel more of a connection with Gary on a father-daughter level. Gary has been treating me like a baby, just like August. Between the two, I can't tell who's worse. *Insert eye roll here*

August & I, we're still not back together as yet, but he's been doing better. He's been showing me that he's really sorry and wants things to work between us. After our little episode in his mother's shower, I haven't given myself to him again. Sex may not be the best thing to do during my first trimester of pregnancy. So we decided on no sex for right now, well.. I did.

Aug and I arrived at the doctors office. We currently at my 10 week doctors appointment. After signing in and waiting a few minutes, the nurse called us back into the room.

I did my normal routine and left a urine sample. I came back in to the room to see August sitting down on the examining table, swinging his legs.

"August." I chuckled. "You do know that I'm supposed to be the one on the table right?"

He nervously laughed, and hopped off the table, helping me up onto it. He took a seat next to me.

"I ain't gon' lie ma', I'm a luh' nervous."'

I chuckled at his little nervous handsome face. "Why August? I'm the one who the one getting checked up by the doctor."

"Nah, not that, just the whole baby thing. I know we ain't on the greatest of terms right nah', and we working on us. But I'm just a luh' nervous of failing you and her."

I smiled at the fact that he said her, but I didn't think too deeply into it.

"What makes you think you'd fail us?"

"Because I failed you." He looked up, and I could see the sorrow in his eyes.

I sighed, "Look, I know I make things hard for you. But it's only because you did hurt me. I'm getting over it and I like how things are going with us right now. You've been proving yourself to me day by day. So basically what I'm trying to say is, I-I forgive you." And truth is, I have. I can't harbor the past and carry it with me to the future.