Love Isn't Enough (L.I.E)

Ch. 31-Nothing's The Same

**Kourtney in the m/m on her Post-Kamryn SnapBack game lol

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August

I tossed Kam's diaper into the diaper genie and picked her up off the bed as she squirmed and fussed.

She was spoiled and always wanted to be in somebody's hands, but thas' my luh angel. Daddy's little girl.

I picked her up and walked into the kitchen to get a bottle ready for her. I grabbed the milk bottle labeled breast milk, and poured it into Kam's bottle, heating it for about 45 seconds. Kourtney made sure to organize and label everything so I knew what was what and where.

"You hungry luh' mama?" I asked her, bouncing her in my arms. She paid me no mind and continued to chew her fingers with her gums.

Once the microwave sounded, I took out the bottle and tested it to see if it was too hot or cold. I balance Kamryn and the bottle in my hands as we headed to our usual chill spot, the living room on the couch.

She started fussing a little, probably cause she saw the bottle.

"Alright Kam, Daddy's coming wit' ya' bottle. Let me get us comfortable first."

I adjusted the chair into recliner mode, and took a seat with Kamryn. I gave her the bottle and she immediately stopped fussing and squirming. Luh' greedy.

These days, all I did was try to consume my time with Kamryn. Things aren't the way I want them to be on life, but Kamryn is my push and motivation everyday.

I've made terrible choices in life as a man and I only pray to God Kamryn never runs into a nigga like me. I've done her mother, Kourtney, so wrong on too many occasions. I don't blame Kourtney for doing this co-parenting thing.

My phone lit up on the coffee table beside me, indicating I had a text message.

Kourtney: I'll be over around 3:00 pm to pick up Kamryn.

Me: Coo'. Can we talk when you get here?

Kourtney: Why August? You don't have anything to say to me if it isn't about Kam.

I shook my head at her text, and replied.

Me: Look I know you I probably think I ain't shit, but theres a few things I should have told you a while ago and I need to get it off my chest.

Kourtney: I'll think about it. After I get Kam, I have things to do so it will have to be quick.

Even though I hated the way this conversation was going, I had to accept it. And I had to accept things for the way they were. But I do need to come clean about some shit that I should've said a good while ago.

It's been 2 months since Kourtney gave birth to Kamryn and our living arrangements is all fucked up. I decided I'd give Kourtney the house, and I went out and got a 2 bedroom condo not too far. If I didn't move out, then she would've. She was gonna move out and get her own place but I couldn't let her do that. So I moved out of the house, temporarily, being sure to leave most of my stuff there so I can always have a reason to stop by for something other than Kam.

I don't plan on things being this way forever, but I'mma have to make the best of it while it lasts.

Kourtney

After the texts between August and I earlier, I called Sal over so I can vent. I hated the way things are with August and I, but this is how it's gonna be. We're toxic for each other and I don't think things will ever work again. There's no trust. I love him dearly but Love Isn't Enough. I simply don't trust him enough with my heart again.