The Indulgence to Desire (SPG)

Chapter Nine

Chapter Nine | After

I felt the shame hit me as soon as I woke up.

Oh, gods. Did that just happen or was that a dream? But it felt too real to be. I still feel the intensity of his fingers inside me. I still feel the flick of his tongue on my neck. I shuddered at agad-agad na bumangon.

I felt a gentle soreness building on my thigh as I jolted.

Did I just come into my roommate's fingers? My bisexual roommate's fingers? Oh, good Lord. Paano ko ba siya haharapin pagkatapos noon?

And I vaguely remember... he was hard, wasn't he? He was definitely erect! I felt his thing poking my butt! Pero sabi niya he wasn't sexually attracted to women... does that mean...? No, I have to stop thinking about that!

What fresh hell is this?

Anxiety rose inside me as I stood up, the hem of my night gown falling breezily onto my legs. Napalunok ako nang bigla kong naalala kung paano niya iangat ang night gown ko kagabi.

So... paano ko ba siya haharapin? Ano bang sasabihin ko sa kanya?

Halos murahin ko na ang sarili ko habang paunti-unting binuksan ang pintuan ng kwarto ko. I quickly took a peak. A heavy weight was lifted from my chest when I saw that Valen wasn't around.

Saan ba siya, kung ganoon?

Baka nasa gym? Baka naliligo? Or maybe, like me, he's also trying his best to avoid a confrontation. I wonder what went on his mind as he was doing that to me last night. Why did he do it? Was he just that good a friend?

But I didn't waste another second. It was already 6 AM. Dali-dali akong naligo. I tried to shut off my brain as I was taking a shower. Dahil alam kong kung saan-saan na naman mapupunta ang isip ko.

Pagkatapos kong maligo, I quickly changed into mg USTC uniform. Dumungaw ako sa alarm clock at napasinghap nang makitang alas siete pa. My first class doesn't start for another four hours! But would I risk seeing Valen when he comes back?

I groaned.

I took another peek from my door and thanked all the gods that Valen was nowhere to be seen. Paunti-unti akong lumabas, holding a breath, at dumungaw sa living area. Wala ring Valen.

I hurriedly took my bag and left the unit.

I was still so anxious as I impatiently stood in front of the elevator. I kept tapping my right foot on the floor as I successively jabbed the 'down' button. My other hand anxiously clutched my tote bag.

The elevator pinged.

Agad akong napatingin sa unti-unting pagbukas nito. Ngunit iba ang nadatnan ko.

Valen's eyes were instantly on me.

I gulped, my eyes widened with horror. Of course, this was going to happen!

He looked a little sweaty, and a towel was draped over his neck. He was also wearing a pair of AirPods. My eyes unconsciously wandered to his black Under Armour fitted shirt, which highlighted the broadness of his shoulders and the subtle bumps of muscle on his chest and upper arm. My eyes trailed further down. Sa pang-ibaba, he was wearing his usual white Nike gym shoes, partnered with gray jogger shorts.  I returned my gaze to his face, albeit stopping for a while at the natural bulge between his...

I mentally slapped myself. Gosh, Lara, you malicious bitch!

Kumunot ang noo ni Valen nang nakita ako.

"Lara?" Naguguluhan niyang tawag sa akin. He took one step towards me.

It was so overwhelming to see him. I knew I wanted to avoid seeing him at all costs, or at least until I figured out a way to gently approach what happened last night. But looking at him now, I realized that despite what happened last night, he was still the only person I wanted to see first thing in the morning.