ELINOR: BTS SHIPS ONESHOTS Series. [CLOSED]

7- You belong to me [Taekook/ Mafia/ forced/ kidnapping]

Taehyung's pov:

Running away, leaving the demon behind, is far better than suffering under them in that hell.

Dying a painful death is better than begging for one. Being shackled in the chains of my sins, I am tired of struggling to be free when I have no purpose to accomplish, other than getting crumbled by those monsters. Yet, I find myself running away to the depths where the shadows can protect me. Curling up on the inside, I am concealing myself from the cruelty of those monsters- both outside and inside, as they consume me in their darkness making my surroundings fade in the dark.

Hence the darkness gave birth to this demon punishing me on the inside, giving me my worst death. It hunts me down everytime I try to run away making myself feel unworthy of the life I can't protect.

Chasing the path of my life clearing the clouds of my dustly past and struggles, a speeding car went past me, blowing me away from the foggy thoughts. I kept my hand on my chest and huffed in relief.

When, suddenly I felt a cold and wet feeling on the back of my hand,it was a tiny rain drop, I concluded when I was welcomed by multiple drop together as it started to rain.

The huge pour down brought ideas of family with it, a home to spend time with family, something that wasn't possible for me.

Because my family would never want to spend time with me. All of them are selfish..my parents,siblings,all of them just wants me to die.

I wish I could meet my ends soon but I don't want that because I promised someone.

I know he is never going to come back,he is probably happy in his life but I am never gonna break the one promise I made and will try to live happily, avoiding the thing that can bring tha curve of my lips down.

All those years my parents, siblings, schoolmates and even my teachers' used to abuse me, humiliate me and mock me.

They thought it was fun to do it but they didn't understand how much it suffocated me, it did not just caged my emotions under their rule but my actions too got restricted.

What was my mistake that I had to go through all that? I keep asking that to myself everytime they push me back into the prison they all made for me to suffer.

All those people are still haunting me,it's like if I ever try to escape they will hunt me down to rip me into shreads.

But I am not a coward to escape from this prison,I just can't face my demons. I am tired not only from all those beatings but from those deep scars they left on my heart.

Even if all those scars and wounds on my body heals but what cannot be heal is the pain in my heart and the monster inside my head which just wants to destroy me.

It's like I have some one else inside my head which keeps shouting that I am useless,worthless, untrustworthy, not good for anything.

I agree that it's true but I want to live.