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"I can't do it anymore!" I sob, throwing my shoes at the wall. "I can't, I can't, I can't" my room door opens. "Babe?" I recognize Kairi's voice but I don't turn to him, too focused on my pain.

I pull my hair and cry harder as Kairi rushes to me, wrapping his arms around me. "I can't do it anymore, Kai. I'm so tired of this" He holds me tighter as I sink to the floor, pulling him with me. "I keep getting hurt, by people who don't even know the real me. My mom keeps calling me names, I thought I could trust Lia but she proved me wrong."

"I'm so sick of it"

I sniffle, beginning to calm down. Kairi continues to hold me without saying a word, just kissing my forehead. Shutting my eyes, I let myself rest on Kairi completely as I calm down. "I'm right here, even if it's not okay now, it will be" he whispers.

I pull away from Kairi slightly, looking up at him with tears in my eyes "is this what I get for trying to be a good person? Do I deserve this? Am I a bad person?"

Kairi's face falls, bringing his hands up to wipe my tears. "No, you don't deserve this, nobody does. You're such a good person, you leave me in awe sometimes at how strong you are. You continue to push even when you're sad, you do your best and it's incredible how much you care. Those people may not know who you are but I know you and you are strong, you're the sun in my life y/n."

He raises my head, "remember Philippians 1:27? "For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake' you told me that. I know this has nothing to do with the situation but pretend everything you're going through is for Jesus. You told me all that and you don't even remember your own advice"

"You're one of the best things in my life, Kai. I-" He shushes me, "I love you for who you are" I let out a small smile. "I love you too" Kairi lets out a grin, "see, there's that smile."

"So, I told my mom I was going to stay with Mattia but I could stay here instead and we can do anything you want" He shrugs, "let's stay in bed and watch Kevin Hart movies?"

"Yeah?"

"Yeah."

~409 WORDS~

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE ENDING WAS

I didn't know how to end it :(

This was just sad and I feel like it wasn't sad enough because if you couldn't tell, I was writing it off my own feelings...

ANYWAY

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

NEVER FORGET THAT

You have a friend in me and even better friend in Jesus, who loves you endlessly :)