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I'm sat on my bed, staring into space. I'm not even sad, actually I don't know how I'm feel. It's one of those days where I don't know what's going on with me, all I know is I don't feel like me.

My phone dings beside me, startling me a little bit.

KAI

I'm so bored

KAI

I miss u

KAI

How are you doing?

I smile a little, whenever I feel like this there's a very limited amount of things that make me smile. My boyfriend being one of them, I haven't seen him in 2 weeks because of the coronavirus situation and maybe that's part of why I feel this way.

REPLY

I miss you too

KAI

You didn't answer my question

KAI

Are you good?

REPLY

nN. And I don't even know what's wrong

Kairi doesn't reply after that but I know he's seen the message. Dropping my phone, I slide to the floor, sitting in the center of my room as I run my hands through my knotted hair that's in dire need of a relaxer. I don't even know what I'm feeling, that's the worst part, pulling at my hair as tears threaten to fall.

I shut my eyes, pulling my hair harder as I fight against the tears. Arms wrap around me and my eyes snap open, the person's scent invades my nose. "Kai..." I exhale, "hey, hey, it's okay" Kairi whispers and that's when I break, letting the tears fall.

He moves me to his lap, his arms tightly wrapped around me as I rest my head on his chest, crying for reasons I don't even know. I stop crying after a while, shutting my eyes and letting myself relax against Kairi. "You shouldn't be here" I mumble, remembering that we're supposed to self-isolate, "I washed my hands before I left my house and when I entered your house. Hand sanitizer is in my pocket" he explains.

"You ready to talk now, love?"

I open my eyes and pull back, sitting in front of him instead. Yes, we're sitting on the floor. "I don't know why I feel like this. My emotions are like wires to a computer that are so tangled, you have no idea where it starts or where it ends" I try to explain, looking at the floor. Kairi reaches for my hand, intertwining our fingers, "is there anything you've been worked up about recently?"

"Yes. You" I smirk, Kai laughs at my comment, "babe, I'm serious." I let my smirk drop and go back to staring at the floor, "I've been stressing about going to uni. I don't know if I'm ready, everyone keeps saying I'm too young and I completely disagree with that statement" I look up at him, looking into his brown eyes.

"What if this isn't the course I should study? I'm so different from everyone else. We're growing up so fast and in 5 months we're supposed to be in uni. What if I can't do it Kai?"

"Hey, no. Look at me" he raises my chin so I can look him in the eye.

"Yes, university is a completely different world. But I know you can do it, forget everyone who says you're too young, the course you're worried about, the one you worked so hard to get to read? That one, I don't think God would let you make the wrong decision. You're always telling me to trust God, I'm telling you that now, you're different from everyone and that's why I'm in love with you."

Kairi pauses to kiss my hand, but I'm too focused on the fact that he said he's in love with me. We've been dating for a year but neither of us had ever mentioned love.

"Yeah, we're growing up but we're doing it together and that's so important. Baby, I know you're scared but I also know that you can do this. You're going to be so good at everything in uni, that you'll forget that you were once scared. I believe in you." He ends his little speech and kisses my forehead, with both hands on my cheeks, he looks into my eyes "okay?"

"Okay" I reassure him before leaning up to press my lips against his.

**

A few hours later, we're in the kitchen because we got hungry. Kairi's looking through the fridge to find something edible.

"Kairi?"

He hums in response. I'm sat on one of the counters, my legs swinging back and forth. I bite my lip in contemplation, trying to decide if it was the best idea to say this to him, I decide to throw caution to the wind and say it.

"I love you"

Kairi's movements in the fridge stops as he looks at me before letting out his beautiful smile, "I love you more, princess."

Sure, I was worried. I was worried about growing up, going to uni and even the course I chose but being with Kairi gives me the kind of peace I've never felt with anyone other than him. I know we're going to be okay.

861 words on word minus the authors note.

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