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𝗞𝗔𝗜𝗥𝗜 𝗖𝗢𝗦𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗡𝗢

you're never alone even if it looks like it.

my messages are always open

ig: xoxo.hsa

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I'm sat around my family. Today, my parents decided to have a huge family dinner and they told me to invite my boyfriend, Kairi. My cousins, aunts and uncles are all here. There's so much laughter all-round the table, I'm sitting beside Kairi who's interacting with my family.

I watch this all happen, cracking a small smile or two when someone looks at me. Even then, nobody notices or maybe nobody cares that clearly I'm not okay.

"Babe" Kairi squeezes my hand, knocking me out of reverie. I turn to him, raising an eyebrow. "You done?" he gestures to the plate I had used to eat, I nod.

He makes eye contact with my mum as we stand up, letting her know that we were done eating. She gives him a smile in return but gives me look to tell me not try anything with him upstairs.

Kairi and I walk upstairs silently while he occasionally takes glances at me. When we walk into my room, I sit on my bed with him in front of me.

"What's wrong?" He asks and I'm almost startled, that's the first time someone has asked me that today. I give him a confused look, "What do you mean? I'm fine."

He shakes his head, "you barely smiled at all today, kept zoning in and out. Those fake smiles you showed your family, how silent you've been..."

"Tell me baby, what's wrong? Did something happen?"

Almost immediately I start to cry, his eyes widen in alarm, sitting beside me and pulling me to his chest. "I've been around my family the whole day and nobody noticed, you were here for 2 hours and noticed everything."

He doesn't say anything, letting me talk. "It's just been tiring. I'm tired mentally, I'm so sick of the same routine. I have exams on Monday with people that I don't want to be around. I don't want to be here anymore" I pause, wiping my tears and rephrasing my sentence.

"I don't want to be in this environment anymore. I want to go somewhere, a place where no one knows me, a completely different way of life. I just don't want to be here, Kairi." I keep quiet, listening to his heartbeat.

Kairi hugs me tighter before pulling away, leaning to kiss my forehead. "I'm sorry that you're suffering, I'm sorry that I can't do anything to take your pain on myself. I'll take you anywhere, anywhere you want to go, you name it and I'll take you there. I know this isn't much comfort right now but baby, I'm here for you, always."

I put hands over his on my cheeks, "you being here and noticing how I feel is the comfort I need. I love you Kai." He leans into kiss me gently, slowly, making me fall in love with him all over again. He tilts his head to deepen the kiss, pulling me into his lap. "I love you more" he whispers against my lips.