Love and grief. Mother Miranda x Reader

Mine

Chapter 23

As the sun shows itself, I open the windows to the living room and let the last of the cool morning air flow in, I feel cold all over. Yesterday, without warning Miranda said some words to me, that weren't quite romantic. I'm still trying to find out what happened, we were just fine. But I'm used to it, this is my life with her, we go from one hundred to zero in a matter of minutes. My back hurts, because I slept on the couch yesterday, I didn't want to share a bed with her after what she said. It wasn't that deep but I was overwhelmed with everything so I took it worst than I should.

Miranda appeared though the stairs, rubbing her eyes, still in her black nightgown. She stood in front of you and started,

"Y/n...you can't be mad at me for that"

"I don't know what to say...if you don't love me, I can leave, I did it once and I can do it again.  I don't want to be with someone who feels that they are wasting their time.  Really, I don't need it.
I'll make it easy for you.  I'm not going to hold you back.  I know you're not happy, so why stay?  Why be with someone you aren't in love with?"

"My dear, I've never said those words"

"Hm" you looked to the other side.

"Forgive me?"

"You know where I'm sending you?  Somewhere you learn how to apologize. It's torture for you, isn't it?  The words, I'm sorry, don't exist for you.  You need to fix that." you continued,

"If that place ever existed Miranda, I would send you, seriously." She shook her head laughing.

"You think I'm joking?  I'm serious."

"But seriously, learn to say the phrase, it won't kill you and it will make me feel a lot better about things.  If I can apologize and own up to my wrongs, so can you Miranda.
Like the time you spilt hot coffee on my lap when you were mad.  I never got an apology.  Or the time when you closed the lab door with me inside.  No apology. I'm not mad at you for being the way you are but it would be nice if you were a bit more receptive to acknowledging when you are wrong because I think it would not only make me feel better but it would make you feel a whole lot better also.
Don't you think you should try to change that?  Not only for us but for you as a person?  We all make mistakes sweetheart, none of us are perfect" I stated.

"SORRY!. Happy? And DON'T call me sweetheart" You shook your head, laughing. It was impossible, she's impossible.

I stood up from the couch, and headed to the kitchen were I put two Tylenol pills into my mouth and swallowed them. I made a face as the go down my throat.

Sharp, and dangerous, like our love.

Like yin and yang

Peace and chaos

Light and dark

So different from each other

But that's what love is all about, two pieces. It doesn't matter if they're different, as long as they fit with the other half.

And she's my other half.

I glanced at Miranda, strikingly attractive, she plays it down by wearing no makeup, a loose-fitting black nightgown, and bare foot. She continues reading while taking an occasional sip of a coffee.
I snuggled in beside her, resting my head on her shoulder. Just touching her made the string of knots inside me loosen. I'd been waiting all day for this moment. I could stand tension between us about as well as I could tolerate being away from her.

"I do ruin everything that comes my way right?"

"No" you stated.

"Miranda, if i die someday, promise me you would go on and be happy" you started

"Y/n don't play those games with me, maybe you don't know how much you mean to me because i don't exactly show it, but deep inside my feelings when it comes to you... they're as fragile as a piece of paper.
And i know you're battling with yourself, i noticed , since the begging, and i fucking hate myself because i don't know how to help you, i hear you crying every night, i know how hard you're trying , i suck Y/n i'm a burden to you. It's selfish yes, but i can't let you go, i've tried , i've made my best to push you away but i just can't, i need you."

"I-I don-"

"Shh, come here" the moonlight illuminating her silhouette, there you were again, in her arms. Your comfort place, a place were nothing feels real for a brief moment. Miranda straighten herself up and turned on our favorite song.

"May I have this dance?" She asked leaning her hand and lifting an eyebrow.

You smirked and reached her hand. She secured her arms around your waist and you wrapped your arms around her neck and nestled your head on the curve of her shoulder. Her body was solid assurance, a warm counterpoint.
This was it. Together. Forever. As we left it all behind, the light of the fireplace warmed my back, making me feel in a complete ecstasy.
I knew of no better foreboding.

"What's that in your neck, Y/n? Was I that rough the other day?"

"Huh?" "Oh yes, hm this is Alcina's work..." you teased her.

"Y/n I swear to god. You have 5 seconds to start running" She clenched her fist and started running after you, the couch was now between you two, she grabbed a pillow and throw it to you making you lose your stability, but you didn't fall.

"Hey! that hurts?,"

Miranda picked you up and laid you on the couch, as she the pinned both your arms above your head, and she made an extra effort to leave hickeys all over your body, so everyone would know who you belong to.

"This... is your lesson, You're mine" "Understood my love?"

"Y-yes" you muttered and kissed her.

"Fine"

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A/N:

This chapter turned out very short, i apologize lol. Anyways, the end is near 👩🏼‍🦯