Plan To Love (Love Duology #2)

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

Someone

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Ano ba ang mas masakit? 'Yung nalaman mong may ibang gusto ang taong gusto mo o tanging kaibigan lang ang turing sa 'yo ng taong gusto mo?

Pero paano kung parehas kong nararanasan 'yon ngayon? E, 'di, iiyak na lang ako kasi hanggang kaibigan lang ako at kailangan ko siyang suportahan sa taong gusto niya?

"Why did you ask, Loveleeryna?" Joseph asked while looking at me.

For the first time in months of being friends with Joseph, he called me with my nickname when he told me that he already likes someone. I don't know, but it hurts me hearing him calling me by my nickname when I got used to him calling me with Loveleeryna. Isama mo pa 'yung pag-amin niyang may nagugustuhan na siya habang siya ang gusto ko.

"B-Because you told me that my crush won't like me even if I'm pretty," I stuttered as I avoided his eyes.

"Where's the connection?" he asked, playful.

"That we're just the same," I answered before glaring at him. "Your crush won't like you back even if you're handsome."

"You think that I'm handsome?" he asked, a smile slowly appeared on his lips.

"That's not the point!" I hissed before crossing my arm over my chest. "If my crush won't like me just like what you said, I'll make sure that the person you like won't like you back, too!"

Joseph burst to laughed upon hearing my statements. Sumimangot ako kasabay nang pag-irap ko dahil sa malakas niyang pag-halakhak na para bang hindi siya makapaniwala na narinig niya ang mga salitang 'yon mula sa 'kin. Well, hearing that from me doesn't matter because I'm serious about what I said!

If I can't have him, then, he can't have the girl that he likes! Fair enough!

"You're so annoying!" I hissed while he was still laughing.

"You don't even know the girl that I like!" he laughed.

"E, 'di, aalamin ko!"

"How?" he asked, still laughing.

"Secret! You might use that to prevent me from knowing your girl!" I irritatedly hissed.

"My girl," he repeated, a smirk appearing on his lips.

I felt annoyed upon seeing the smirk on his lips when he repeated my words earlier. He looked so happy when he said that the girl that he likes is his girl. Because of annoyance, I flicked my finger to his forehead before running away from him, getting out of the music room as I heard him shouting my name, calling me.

Sa ibang direksyon ako dumaan dahil baka ay makasalubong ko ang tatlo na malamang ay papunta na rin sa music room para kay Joseph. Alam kong magtataka sila kung bakit ko iniwan si Joseph mag-isa sa music room at ayokong sabihin sa kanila ang pinag-usapan namin ni Joseph dahil alam kong mapagta-tanto nila na may gusto ako sa pinsan nila. Isa pa, baka, malaman nila na may nagugustuhan na rin si Joseph. Baka, araw-araw ko pa 'yon marinig dahil sa pangungulit nila kay Joseph na sabihin kung sino 'yung babaeng gusto niya.

Kahit na gusto kong malaman kung sino iyong guso niya ngayon, 'wag na lang din dahil baka, bigla ko na lang ikumpara ang sarili ko sa babaeng gusto niya. I hate comparing myself to others when I know how beautiful I am. Comparing myself to others makes me feel that I am already insecure with them even if I am beautiful on my own.