Plan To Love (Love Duology #2)

Chapter 44

Chapter 44

Promise

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I realized that there are people who choose to wait for the reason why they were left behind to move on. That they still want to know the reason why they didn't end up together, so they could move on from the tragedy of their relationship. Yet, some people got tired of waiting for the reason they've been wanting to hear. Some of them just made up a reason for themselves to move on. While most of them don't care anymore.

Most of them believe that whatever the reason is, they just don't care anymore. Na bahala na dahil wala na silang pakialam doon. Na bakit pa nila aalaminin kung nangyari na? Kung tapos na?

Maybe, Steve is one of the people who chose to ignore the reason. He doesn't care about my reason anymore because the pain that I brought to him is too high that instead of avoiding it, he embraced the pain to make himself stronger than before. Maybe... He still cares about the reason, but he just doesn't want to know anymore because it's not necessary anymore.

While thinking about the reason why Steve doesn't want to hear my reason anymore, I couldn't help but think that maybe this is my karma. My karma of what I did before. That carrying the guilt of what I did is my karma because even if I didn't want to cheat on Steve, I still did because I entered a relationship with him when I'm still in love with Joseph.

Kahit na hindi ako humalik pabalik kay Joseph noon, alam kong niloloko ko lang din si Steve dahil palagi kong sinasabi na mahal ko siya kahti na si Joseph ang tunay kong mahal. Tama lang din siguro na nahuli niya kami no'ng gabi na 'yon para matapos ang relasyon naming dalawa kung saan siya lang ang tunay na nagmamahal. May okay na siguro 'yon dahil kung hindi siguro 'yon nangyari, baka hanggang ngayon ay tanga pa rin akong nanatili sa tabi ni Steve kahit na alam ko nang si Joseph lang talaga.

My lips parted as my heart drummed loudly upon hearing my OB-GYN. I blinked a few times in front of her before I checked the ultrasound photo she gave me. I felt my lips dried upon seeing the small dark circles on it which she said is my baby. I went out of her clinic before I drove back home, still shocked by what I just learned about myself.

I'm pregnant?

My OB-GYN told me that I'm seven weeks pregnant, and I am certain that it's Joseph's since he's the only man that I had sexual interaction with. We're together again since I lost the bet that we made between the video games we played. Ryan has the proof of it since he filmed it before we made a bet. Joseph and I aren't announcing to the public that we're together again, but we're not hiding it, too. Hinayaan na lang namin sila na isipin ang gusto nilang isipin dahil wala kaming pakialam sa sasabihin nila hangga't masaya kami.

Hindi rin naman lumabas ang tungkol sa relasyon namin dati ni Steve, at kung lumabas man 'yon, hindi ko alam kung pa'no ako magpapaliwanag tungkol sa bagay na 'yon dahil hanggang ngayon ay ayaw pa rin ni Steve na making sa 'kin, lalo na ngayon na halatang interesado na siya sa isang babae, na ang chismis sa 'kin ni Oliver ay si Laura raw.

Oliver found out about my relationship with Steve before, so I needed to explain to him the whole thing, so he could understand. Of course, he got mad at me because of what I did, but he said that he wasn't in the place to be mad at me because he doesn't know what I felt during those days. He told me not to tell anyone that he already knows about it because he wants his friends to tell him about it. I am thankful that Oliver understood both sides, but he still got mad at me and Joseph for doing that to Steve. I understand because he's Steve's friend.

I licked my lower lip before biting it upon arriving at our house. I felt my heart abnormally reacted when I saw Joseph's car parking in front of the house. I let out a heavy sigh before I went out of the car. I smiled when I saw Joseph bothering my brother, who was busy studying. Ryan looked annoyed.