STAIN ON MY PURE

Chapter Twenty Eight

Ziyanda's POV

It's been four days, four days since I last saw my little brother, with the fear of the unknown whether he is still alive or he's waiting on me every day starving to death. Part of me believes he lives and HE was just bluffing with me I mean he wouldn't murder a nine year old boy just to get to me. I mean He already have me under his control he had broken me I have surrendered to him and obeyed accepted my fate there's nothing I can do more.

I am tired of praying, hoping wishing for a better day tomorrow a new life new everything I am hopeless, I have been stained I am no longer pure and God was punishing me for allowing the Devil rule my life. I have lost my senses my inner voice, myself I don't know who I am anymore I don't know how to feel or what to feel. I have become numb to the feeling the only feeling I know now is just no hope.

I miss my life, my brother, my work, my sister, my family, the orphanage and everything. I could just slit my throat out with a knife but I can't seem to put myself into doing that. HE has hurt me in the most painful way than ever. I saw the look in his eyes when he said he has taken care of my brother he was satisfied with himself and proud of what he had done, I know he didn't murder him no I hope a part of does but here is what I know is that I am now his lapdog.

Flashback

"How was school honey anything good or interesting happened today?"

Dad asks me while driving me from school back home like he always does . I like the relationship my dad and I have we are insuperable he is my hero my father he a real hero not just mine but a community's hero a big time shot detective and I swear he was my BATMAN the way he is my rock.

I just giggle soft giggle at him

"I mean school... Was just school nothing interesting dad. You ask me every day this dad "

"I know but I can't help but want to know about my daughter day at school if the are any kids bothering her, boyfriends-girlfriends maybe?"

"Dad!" I exclaim

"What I mean you are a teenager now and I a beautiful one at that and I am guessing boys had started shooting their shots at you or girls so I need to be prepared you see"

I can't believe this man thinks I am interested in boys or relationships right now I maybe a twelve turning thirteen soon and most of peers are already into that part of life but I am still focused on school nothing else.

"I'm not yet a teenager dad, and no I'm not interested in any boys or girls for that matter and dad you are my dad you shouldn't be asking me such questions especially at this age but protecting me from such conversation...."

"And that's what I'm doing kid I know how kids your age nowadays are like and I read somewhere that we needed to start talking about such things with our kids because it's important to have a good communicational relationship with your kid it strength your trust"

"Ja I see , hmmm"

My stomach growls I'm hungry again and I just had lunch about three hours I swear my metabolism is super fast no wonder why I have grown bigger in some parts of my body . You see I'm twelve but you could confuse for a sixteen year old by the way my body has matured or developed and I get why dad was on the look for me because boys were now a nuisance for real they be on my neck like flies asking me out even guys in highschool .

"Uhmmm dad?"

"Ja?"

"Can we please pass the drive thru I'm starving please?" I ask

"Sure whatever you want sweetheart"

We ended up buying Mc Donald's with some fries and drinks and went to pick up Mom from her workplace she was a nurse and for dinner obviously she cooked a nice rice, fried chicken and some salads I helped as always.

After washing dishes with dad I went to watch TV with my family set in between them.

I brushed Mom's big pregnant belly softly she says the baby loves it when I do that, he kicks and I also love the tingling sensation feeling that runs from my hand.

"He knows you love him sweetie"

"How do you know it's a boy mama what if it's a girl?"

"Trust me baby he is a boy"

"And I can't wait to meet him mama, watch sport with him, play with him, watch superhero movies with everything mama we will become the best siblings in the Mashu mama"

Mama and dad just smile at me and continue watching TV.

End of Flashback

I fell in love with my baby brother when he was still in the womb and the thought that now he's gone from me gone living only God know where was killing me deeply and He knew it was.

I don't know what I ever did to him to despite me like this. Hurt me so badly like he was doing now.

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Sorry the last chapter was a little bit short.

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