STAIN ON MY PURE

Chapter Fifty -Five

Ziyanda's POV

I have managed to acquire wealth, power and respect from most of the underground people yes not by playing fair or safe rather but I had to do what I did. I had to sacrifice a lot in order to make the world a better place for myself and kid(s) I had been hurt, hunted, haunted, used, abused etc etc.

Am I proud of whom I have become partially yes but on the other hand I am Goddamn proud of the person I have become now. Something about power and wealth gives a whole new acceleration from within deep inside I like knowing I am feared yet respected by many because they know I can end them any minute.

Yet same time I still feel a void in my heart I've tried to heal, forget move on but I can't whilst knowing there's a part of me that's out there raised by God knows who, is he being fed right? Is he being raised, taught values of life and manners right? Is the person keeping my son from me grooming my child into a monster or a human being? Yes I may have now become that person too or so do people think I have made sure that I cleanse the dirty money first, open legit authorized business to create a new empire for my kids.

A new world, a world far from all the guns blazing, blood and crime just legit businesses donated a ton of money to people who need it more, got some evil behind bars along the run took out a lot of kingpins across the globe but I still feel empty.

Rrrr rrrr rrr

A phonecall interrupt my thoughts

"Ziyanda speaking?"

"Miss, Nkosi your meeting has been arranged to 2 pm sharp today, as per requested"

I check the time it's already 13:47 heck I only have 13 minutes.

"I'll be there, make sure the guards are all ready and so is the car"

With that I put my coat on and roll to my destination.

Time skip to 14:03

I arrive at the meeting place finding the person I meeting already seated in their seat as expected, my heart shutters a bit as now it's only me and then inside the room now else

I thought I could do this, I have prepared myself for this moment, for months I rehearsed this moment in my head but now I am here I wanna squirm and hide.

"Don't worry I am not going to harm you or any that I could for that matter" floating their handcuffed hands along with chains to their legs

"It's good to see you again Zee after all this time, I didn't think you'd come"

I still just stare at them calculating my words in my head. After all this time  he still has a hold of me, still makes me shiver and squirm just by his scent and presence and not in a good way.

"I'm here now, so what do you want?"

"I wanted to..."

"Let me guess apologize? Threaten me, that as soon as you get out of here you'll have my head huh?!"

"No, I just wanted to see you again one more time, just needed to hear your voice"

I laugh at his silliness

"You're tripping right?!" I ask in disbelief

"Believe me or not Zee I don't hold any grudge on you for doing what you did I mean I deserved it for how I treated you, heck I am still even shocked that you spared that night you had every chance to shoot me dead right there and then, but you didn't for that I thank you for giving me another chance in life probably to be a better man for my kids and hopefully one day for my family "

I stare at him in disbelief again as if I didn't hear him right

"Zee, I understand that what I'm saying to you now is maybe something you don't want to hear especially from judging how I used to treat you, but you're the best thing that has ever happened to me, you gave me life, hope and most of all family I wish that one day you can find it in your heart to forgive me"

"Wow this is just getting better and better every single second of it, are you high or something Alexander?! Hmmm?! You want me to forgive everything you did to me huh? Forget how you molested me several times for months, kept me from away from my brother before you had him sent to go know where, abused me, tortured me, beat me the list goes on and on did you hear yourself?!" screaming every word

"I know what I did and I am not proud of it Ziyanda but this is me Alexander Brock Bennett asking forgiveness as a changed man, being here and those months Matteo held you captived made me realize how important you are to me, you're the mother of my children and love of my life which I ruined it"

"Listen to me real carefully Alexander you should worship the ground and I walk and lick it that I didn't pull the trigger right between your forehead and eyes that night when I had a chance after all the pain, torture, nightmares you brought me I should have but I didn't, I didn't..." Tears just falling from my eyes now I can't hold it in anymore

Great I am showing him that he stills has control over me how pathetic can I become?

"I wanted with all that in me had the cops hadn't walked that minute you'd be dead not even six feet under but 28 feet under that's how many time you forced your way on me and I begged you to stop, not to every single time you enjoyed it while I was suffering feeling pain, to top it of you impregnated me with your unwanted seeds forced me to have your evil seed inside me and raise it, I got kidnapped, held against my own will by your so called brother or enemy/rival whatever that he was to you and he also forced his your way on me although he was more gently than you'd ever be, and you know what's funny I killed him like a pathetic loser I am I shot him dead and let you live whereas I should have shot you first "

"Now I might never find where my son is because the only person who knows where he is, is lying dead inside a coffin somewhere at the cemetery even if I wanted to ask him where held my baby at I will never find an answer that fucken pisses me off every day I want to struggle the life out of you little by little but I can't, I won't and you know why? Why? Hmm? I am bigger than you are Alexander I refuse to be like you, I will raise my baby daughter like a good person I am and I will continue to look for my son till I find him whether that takes me a hundred years to track down where he's at I will do so that you can vouch on"

He looks at me without saying any word as I turn my heels to leave.

"Have a nice life"

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It's been a while huh hope y'all like the chapter

Alexander is alive