Lady Racer

Chapter 21

"I want to go home." I tell Weston in a small voice, afraid that I would start crying at any moment.

"Okay. I'll take you back." He says and stands up with me. He wraps his arm around me to guide me back towards the truck. I know people are probably watching us but I don't care.

Weston picks me up and puts me in his truck before taking us back to the house. "I texted your dad and told him we were back at the house. He said that we could order pizza or make something to eat."

"I don't want anything." I mumble. I don't know why it made me so upset. They just wanted to say a prayer for me and inform people on what happened. When I first heard them talking, I thought they were going to announce that I had been assaulted. It brought back flashbacks from last years incident plus new ones that my brain must've made up.

"You have to eat something Blake." Weston says calmly but I know he's annoyed. He has to be annoyed. I'm broken and he's trying everything to fix me but he can't. Nobody can. As soon as Weston figures out what really happened, he will be running away from me in disgust.

He helps me out of his truck at the house and walks with me up the stairs. I head towards the direction of my room with my arms in front of me to guide me. Once I get to the wall I use that to open my door and go into my room. I collapse on the bed and curl into my blankets. I feel like I'm on the edge of alertness and sleep until my door is opened.

"I made some of your favorite ice cream with crushed Oreos on top. It's not real filling food but it's something. Do you want it?" Westons voice echos in my room.

"I told you I didn't want anything. I'm not hungry." I mumble.

"You really need to eat. I know you don't feel hungry, or maybe you do and you just don't feel like it, but it will help you." He argues.

"Why are you even still here?" I snap. I feel bad but I already started. I need him to see that I'm not the same girl that I was. "I didn't ask you to come. I don't need you." I want to cry, let all my tears out that I'm holding back, but I can't. I can't hear what he will say when he knows what happened. It will only break me more. That's why I have to make him leave before he does.

"You don't mean that Blake. I'm sorry for pushing you but it's what I do for someone I care about. I've lost so many people in my life, I don't want to loose anymore." Weston says in a small voice. I can feel my heart breaking at the words that are going to come from my mouth next.

"I do mean it. If I could see you, I'd look right in your eyes when I said it. I don't need you. Just go home. I'm fine." My voice breaks a couple of times but I disguise it so he couldn't tell.

"Fine, I'll leave. If that helps you then I'll stay away." I hear his footsteps travel out my door and then my door shuts. The tears start falling from my eyes as I cry into my pillow. Letting all of my emotions out. I cry so hard that it puts me into a deep sleep.

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I wake up to the bright sun shining into my room. I groan and cover my head with a pillow. Wait, bright? I gasp and sit up quickly. Im met with the bright light covering my room. Everything was blurry but I could see the light and I could make out certain objects.

I blink my eyes a few times and look again. Some of the blur left. I could see all of the objects in my room, I just couldn't read anything. I began to get excited, I finally had my sight back. All of that left when I seen the melted bowl of ice cream on my side table.

A sob escaped my throat as I remembered everything from last night. All of the harsh words I told Weston to make him leave. Was that the end of us, did we break up? That was the last thing that I ever wanted to do but it was either break my own heart or let it be broke by the guy that I've fallen for. I'm already broke enough, I wasn't going to let anyone break me worse.