Lady Racer

Chapter 27

I wake up feeling horrible like always. My stomach is rolling and if I make a wrong move I'll end up in the bathroom throwing up. Everything just feels wrong. To make it even better, the babies want donuts. This is the first craving that I've had and it sucks since I have no donuts and I'm not about to make a special 30 minute trip to get some.

I start sobbing for like the millionth time since I've found out about the twins. As if one baby wasn't bad enough at 17, god just had to throw in another. I don't know what I'm going to do. I already made the decision to keep them but I'm not sure how I can take care of two newborns by myself.

There won't be enough room in this house to add two more babies to the mix so that leaves me to look for an apartment or something cheap that I could rent. I don't want to be a bother to my family and having twins in the house would be complete chaos.

"Blake?" I heard my dad call as he knocked on the door. He slowly opened the door and looked in. "What's wrong sweetie?" Did I mention that I hadn't told my dad or siblings about the twins? I just found out three days ago and have been trying to digest the news. Mom agreed that I could wait but I had to tell them within the week.

I opened my mouth to speak but instead, a sob came out. "Oh, Blakey." My dad sighed as he came over to me and wrapped his arms around me. I cried into his shirt as he rubbed my back just like he used to do when I was younger and would have nightmares.

"Is something wrong or hurting?" He asks and I shake my head. "Then what's wrong?"

"Everything feels wrong dad. I had everything planned out and now it's all ruined." I cry out.

"Everything's not ruined Blake. You are a strong girl, this baby won't hold you back. I believe in you. After you have this baby, you can get back into racing and working at the shop. Hell you can even go on the tour with the baby. Nothing stops you, you always figure out a way." He tells me as he rubs my back.

I lean over to under my pillow and grab my ultrasound from a few days ago. I drop the ultrasound into my dads lap and I watch him pick it up to look at it. He stares at it and a frown appears. "You're having twins?" He asks without looking away from the paper. All I can do is nod.

"Listen Blake, no matter if it's one baby or four babies, your mom and I will be here to help you with what ever you need. You have your whole family behind you with this. You will end up looking back on this and seeing how much of a blessing this is." My dad tells me as he wipes my tears. "I hate seeing you cry and I wish like hell that I could say or do something to help you but I can't. You just have to be strong and believe in yourself."

"You are helping dad." I say with a sad smile. He returns it and kisses the top of my head.

"I really don't know how but I'm glad. I'll always be here for you Blakey, you're my baby and always will be." My dad says and I give him a hug.

"Thanks for being such a good dad." I mumble to him.

"Thank you for being such a good daughter. I'm thankful for all of you kids." He said. I finally pulled away and laid back.

"I'm going to go back to bed. I'm tired from not sleeping much last night." I tell him and he nods.

"Sweet dreams." He says and kisses my head before heading out the door. I watch as he closes the door and then I roll over. Sleep came easily after my talk with dad. I was feeling much better.