Kpop x male reader

Straykids - bangchan

Lol hi.
Pretty much just the reader breaking up with Chan :] I'm not sorry. <3
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Y/n's pov
3 months. That's how long it's been since I've had a proper conversation with my boyfriend. He gets home while I'm asleep and leaves before I wake up. He missed my birthday, our anniversary. He forgot about our dates and never apologized. I always brushed it off. I love him more then anything. But I'm done. My mom died last year. Yesterday was the official 1 year mark on her death. I texted and called him. I told him I would need him because it is the hardest day for me. He didn't respond. Nothing. So I was alone.

So I'm done. I'm done with sleeping alone. I'm done with the half-assed apologies. I'm done. I'm packing my shit and I'm leaving. I'm not going to confront him, I'm just going to leave. I've always taken care of him. I've made sure he was eating and sleeping well, whenever he was hurt after a performance I would always be there to help. The one day I just need him to be there with me he is nowhere to be found.

My side of the closest is empty except the very few clothes I couldn't fit in the suitcases.i have to go through my dresser and my bedside table and see what I'm leaving and what I'm taking. Chan shouldn't be home till 3 in the morning so I have time.

My dresser has little to no clothes in it. I've slowly gotten rid of the clothes in the past few months. They have gotten to big, I lost a lot of weight since My mom passed so I've needed a new wardrobe. Chan was supposed to come with me to get new clothes but he forgot and I just never got to it I guess. I wish I had gotten new clothes but I'll get more after everything is settled.. I go through the little clothes in there and pick out a few things. 3 sweatshirts, 2 sweaters, 3 shirts and 4 pants. I don't have much room left in my bags, I have all the important things I need packed so the rest of the room is just for extras.

My dresser just has pictures and random objects I own. The pictures are mainly of me a chan, some of me and my family. I can't really pick which ones to grab so I just get them all. I can go through them later on.

I suddenly hear a voice from the hallway and it's none other than bang Christopher Chan... "Y/n-ah! I'm home earlier then normal! Why are there bags in the living room?" right after he finishes talking Chan appears in the doorway. His face goes from confusion to panic. "Y/n what's going on? What are you doing?" Chan asks walking up to me.

I start to panic and close my bag the rest of the way. I didn't think he would come home while I was leaving... Chan squats down next to where I'm sitting and he reaches for my hand and I let him grab it. He looks around the room and sees my part of the closet empty and everything else of mine pretty much gone. He frowns and looks at me straight in the eyes.

"Baby why is your stuffed packed? Did something happen? Tell me what's wrong and I'll fix it.!" His voice sounds desperate and suddenly there is tears falling down mine and his cheeks. I reach out and wipe his tears.

"Darling we aren't working.." his face just lightens and he starts mumbling things like 'no' or 'please don't leave'. We haven't been the same.. We have only pushed each other away throughout the years.

"I've been second after your career for a long time.. I've always been okay with that but now I just can't. I love you so so so much, we just don't work... Not anymore" Chan just shakes his head and lays his forehead on my lap..

I run my hand through his hair and he just continues to cry. He lifts his head and he looks directly at me.
"Ill work less! I'll take you with me and I'll be more active in our relationship! Just please, please don't leave me!" he practically begs me. I give him a sympathetic smile.. I rub his head once more before I stand up and grab my bag.

"Love we both deserve better... Just.. Take care of yourself for me okay? I don't know the best thing to say but all I can say is that i love you." Chan stands up grabbing to hug me but I move and walk away before he can. He follows behind me and rambles small things to get me to stay but honestly we both know it won't work.

Regardless on how much we love each other we are toxic for one another, we were great in the beginning. Slowly we just stopped working. That happens in some relationship, regardless if we don't work in the end we still have our memories.. I grab another bag from the livingroom and walk outside to put it in my car.
Chan tries to grab the bag from me but I just remove his hand.

After I load all my bags in my car I turn to Chan who is just standing there crying.. It hurts to see.. I walk over and stand it front of him. I put both my hands on his face and I look at him. "I'm sorry.. Maybe we will find each other in another life time" Chan just nods at me and I smile. I kiss his cheek and I hug him tight. We stay there for a few moments before letting go and avoiding each other's gaze.

I get into my car and I just drive. I'm going to stay at an hotel until I move into an apartment not to far away.. I don't know if this is the right choice but it's what is best right now..

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There might be a part 2 but idk. Depends if I go into another depressive episode again. Lol. Hope you enjoyed!