Kpop x male reader

Straykids- Felix

Y/n's pov

He cheated on me.

I've been fucking cheated on.

He waited three days to tell me. He came home and acted completely normal, like he hadn't just betrayed me in the one way he promised me he wouldn't.

I have told him a million times that I would forgive him over almost everything, but cheating is one thing I never thought I would have to worry about him.

Did I push him? Is this my fault? Did I not love him enough for me to be enough?

Here I am sitting on the couch with the person who I thought could never betray me, on his knees trying to get me to look at him. I can't. I can't look at him knowing he gave a part of himself to a lady he doesn't even remember the name too.

I've given up everything for him. I left my goddamn family back at home so I can stay with him! How the hell am I supposed to handl this?

I don't know how to start over. I don't know if I can start over.

"Angel please.. please look at me. I'm so fucking sorry. I'm so sorry"

I feel sick. I feel so fucking sick. How? How could he have hidden it from me for three fucking days?! Three days.

I run my hands over my face and take a deep breath. Then I start crying. Sobbing is probably the right term to use in this situation. Felix tries to comfort me but I just push him away. I can't let him touch me. He touched her. I can't-

I don't know ho to do this. The love of my fucking life fucked a random women and that leaves me having to decide wether I'm strong enough to stay with him or wether I'm strong enough to leave him.

I don't-

I stand up and start walking to our bedroom. I need to leave. I need to go to a hotel or something. I need time to think about what this means for me and I don't think I can stay in the same place as him for now. I just need space.

"Baby please say something, I'm so fucking sorry. Please don't leave me. Please give me another chance. I love you so fucking much" He begs me, following me into our room. I don't say anything. I grab a bag and start throwing clothe into it.

Felix tries to grab the bag but I pull it away from him and just glare at him. The pain is evident in his eyes and I can't help but wonder if he feels exactly how I do right now.

Like my heart is being ripped out of my chest.

I hate it when he cries. He is too pretty to be crying, but it's satisfying in a way. I hate him. I hate this.

I've always said that if someone cheated on me then I would leave but now that I'm in this situation I'm not so sure. Felix loves me more than anything. We love each other so fucking much but if we stay together I'll always worry if he is thinking about someone else.

I want to marry him one day but what if his is it for us? What if this is all that we were supposed to be? History for each other. I don't want that.

what am I supposed to do?

Am I supposed to leave? Forgive him? Counseling?

It would be much easier to handle this if there was some kind of rule book to follow. I don't want to deal with this.

I can't stay with him. I won't.

He spent the night with a woman who he only met that night. It took me seven months to even let him inside my apartment, let alone us sleep together. I don't do well with people, I grew up isolated and alone. I don't let people in, I don't like to go out and meet new people.

I like stability and safety. I felt that with felix.

And now I'm here.

I've never felt more uncomfortable in my own home.

I finish putting all the stuff I'll need in my bag and zip it up. I go to grab my laptop and my chargers

I can't do this. I can't. I can't. How do I do this? How-..

He has only ever shown me love. He is kind, understanding, and we are together constantly. The one time he goes out, the one time we aren't together. He sleeps with someone. 

He touched someone else. He touched someone else then came home and cuddled with me. Told me that we can work through anything and that he loves me more then anything.

Felix became my reason to live. My reason to breathe. It took months for him to get close to me. Months for me to even agree to go on a date with him. 

God I'm so fucking stupid. I knew this was a bad idea. I told myself in the beginning that this wouldn't work out and I was right. 

I became best friends with him members. I built a family- a life around him. And now I'm not only losing him, but them too. I don't have anyone else. I don't-.

God I can't breathe. I think I'm going to throw up.

"Y/n please.. we can talk about it, we can work on this. Please. We can try. I can't lose you." He is begging. He looks just as frantic as I do.

For a second I see the man I fell in love with. The one who called or visited everyday, the one who would send me gifts on a bad day and bake for me. He built me into the person who I am. And then he broke me. How ironic.

"3 days, Felix. It took you 3 days to tell me! Did you even get tested? Make sure you didn't pass anything on to me? Did you even think about how this would go!" I yell at him. Then I keep yelling.

Im so mad. But I don't think it's all anger. It's everything. It's the betrayal, the hurt. It's all the emotions I've felt in the past 2 hours.

Then I grab my bag and walk out. I get into my car and start it. Felix is standing outside of it begging me to take a second. Begging me not to leave.

I don't want to. I don't want to go. But I have to. If I have any self respect I have to leave him. So I pull out of the driveway and leave.

God I hate my life.

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