Kpop x male reader

Stray kids - Bangchan(2)

Y/ns pov
It's been 2-ish months since I've left. Chan has called me a bunch, mainly drunk texts. A few drunk calls but not to many of those.When it comes to his members, I've cut off all contact. Well everyone except Jeongin of course. He is my cousin so I can't exactly do that.

Cutting them off was definitely hard because I had gotten really close with some of them but it was also just easier to cut them off entirely. I'm trying to make a new start for myself and regardless on how much I miss them this Is the easiest way to stay away from Chan.

I've talked to chan once since I've left.. It was weak of me but I was drunk and a mess. I almost came home- well back to my old home. I was close.. But I didn't. I went to bed and woke up the next day and blocked his number.

Today has been long and hard. Work messed up my Brain bad today. I've been called by stray kids members all day which has just irritated me worse. Jeongin has texted me every 2 minutes and at this point im ready to break my phone.

I change into my sleep wear and just turn on a random movie. Normally movies distract me but all I can hear is RING RING RING. I normally can ignore thesw things but what if something bad happened? Normally they give up after awhile but for some reason it's different today..
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After an hour I give up and awnser Jeongins call.
"Y/n thank god! We really need your help.." I hear Jeongin yell as soon as I awnser the Phone. I can hear a bit of sounds from around him, I just assume that it's the members.

"Jeongin no offence because I love you lots but why the fuck are all of you calling my phone?" I ask putting my phone on speaker so I can set it down.

"Y/n I know you don't want anything to do with Chan and the group in general but seriously we need help.. Chan hasn't left his room in over a month, he barely ever eats and he hasn't Showered or worked. I know you guys broke up but you are the only person he will listen to.." Jeongin rambles on not even taking a small breath. I can hear the hopeful tone in his voice. I let out a small sigh. He wants me to come and help.. He asks me to come and help, adding a few please's to the beg.

I let out another sigh and pick up my phone. "I'll be there In 30 minutes.." I can hear hear him let out a deep breath and say a quick thank you before ending the call. I can't believe I'm doing this.. Chan needs help.. If I go it will just make everything harder for myself..Fuck it at this point. Chans health is more important.

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I arrive at the dorms and just walk in because that's the normal.Or it was at least. I walk into the living room to see all the members except Chan. When they see me their faces light up a bit and they look semi relived. I smile at them with a small wave and Felix practically jumps on me. "I missed you! I get you didn't want to be around  Chan but ghosting us isn't fair"

"I'm sorry! I missed you guys too.. But I'm here to help  Chan and leave.. I don't want to make anything harder then is already is." I explain patting him on the head. He nods but squeezes me harder.

"Don't be a stranger, okay?" I smile at him and nod. After a moment he lets go.  "Go help channie" felix whispers and for a moment, just for a moment there is a glimpse of sadness.

I wave at everyone once again and walk down the hallway leading to chans room. There is a show playing in his room but other than that there is no other noise. I knock on the door, trying to open it but it was locked. I hear a faint voice say "I'm not hungry lix."

I knock once again and there is no response this time. "Chan.. It's me"I say leaning on the door frame. There are footsteps and then the door opens revealing a pale, sick looking Chan. He stands there staring at me, swaying a bit. "Y/n.."

I reach up touching his forehead. "You're burning up.. And you smell. Bad. I'll run you a bath and get you some food. Your job is to stop smelling like... That" I say putting my hand down back at my sides.

Chan moves in trying to hug me but I put my hand in the way so he can't get close enough. "You can have a hug after you have bathed.." he just nods staring at me. I walk him to the bathroom, having him sit on the counter so I can start the water.

"Shower or bath?" I ask turning my head towards him. He mumbles out a quiet "shower" and I nod. I put the water on medium heat close the glass door to let it heat up. "I'm going to get you clothes and a towel for when you are done.. You just shower."

I walk out and close the door behind me, letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding in. I go into his room which is a mess and look through his closet trying to find clean clothes. He has some clean clothes but not a lot. I brought one of my sweatshirts just in case he wants it. He's bigger than Me but I buy sweatshirts that are a few sizes to big because they are more comfortable.

I pick up the clothes I chose for him to Wear including my hoodie and I walk to the bathroom. I hear the shower still running so I open the door a little bit and set it down on the sink. I close the door quickly after and walk down the hallway. I hope they have medicine and the stuff for soup..

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I'm in the middle of making soup until I feel arms wrap around my waits and a head rests on my shoulder. I turn and it's Chan. He looks like he Is going to collapse.

"Sit. You look dead" I mumble grabbing a chair for him. He sits but keeps a grip on one of my hands.

I let him because I can't even explain how much I miss his touch. When we were together we were always touching in some way. Hand holding, cuddling, even just our arms touching. We never stopped. It was how we sought out comfort.

"I've missed you.. I haven't been back to the house since you've left. It's empty" he says looking up at me.

I look away from him and stir the soup. His grip tightens and he puts his forehead on my arm. I put down the spoon and run my fingers through his hair. He leans into the touch instantly.

He stares up at me and it looks like he is going to cry. I want to come home to him everyday. I miss seeing his face. Suddenly I want to cry.

"Please come home. Please.. I know I don't deserve you and I didn't treat you how you deserved but I can. I can't even function without you." he begs as tears begin to flow

I slowly start to wipe his eyes and smile at him. "Let's get you healthy again and then we will talk, okay?"

He nods and out of habit I kiss his forehead.

I'm not sure if I'll come home. I love him. I'm in love with him. But I'm not sure if love is enough for us