Trying Something New (DISCONTINUED)

Cheater Cheater

Its been odd not seeing Luca for the past few days. I tried texting him to come hang out but he kept saying he was busy. Maybe he's sick? or maybe he really is busy? but with what? Should I tell him about my spiderman? I want to but at the same time I dont. Spiderman is my own little secret, a little moment of weakness that I dont regret even though how bad that sounds. Maybe I really dont belong with Luca if this is how I feel about another man, does this make me a cheater?

"Earth to Payton! You there?"

I slowly snap out of my thoughts and look at Kels. We decided to stay in, just the family, and watch movies all day. It's been awhile since it's been just us family; it's been so hectic these last few weeks and school is slowly creeping up. It's July 22 which means school starts in a matter of weeks and I don't think any of the Moores are ready for school. Kels sure as hell isn't, she still hasn't done any of her homework and hasn't signed up for any of her classes. Oli is definitely not ready, he's in the same situation as Kels, except he doesn't have the mentality for school right now either. The one time I asked about school, he started to talk over me.

"Sorry, I got lost in thought there for a little," I apologized as I sat up and leaned forward to look at the movie laid out on the floor in front of us. Oli went to go make more popcorn and Jake was sitting on the other side of me with Em. Both of them were still in their pajamas, their brown hair ruffled in a bed head fashion, and food was spread out around them. Kels had her blonde hair in a messy bun with a baggy shirt and baggy sweats. I had on shorts and a t-shirt with my hair up in a disheveled pony tail. I quickly pointed to a movie and smiled, "What about this one? It should be fine for Jake and Em to watch."

Kels shrugged, indifferent about my movie choice as she popped it in the DVD player and waited for the previews to stop. Oli came sauntering in with just pants on, his bare chest on display as he popped a few popcorns in his mouth. He plopped down next to Kels and passed the popcorn down to the middle of us.

"What movie we watching?" He asked as Em started to crawl over to him. He swiftly picked her up and placed her in his lap. She smiled and giggled as she settled in his lap. Jake crawled over to me, I placed a hand around his shoulder and he lay his head down in my lap. We settled down as the previews continued.

"It's a surprise," Kels answers as I snatch some popcorn and pop it in my mouth. We waited for the movie menu to show up, and when it did, Oli didn't voice a word of disapproval.

"Harry Potter is always a classic," he responded as I clicked the remote to play the movie. I know we were probably going to go on a Harry Potter splurge now, but I had no objections. I was never obsessed with Harry Potter, but if it was on, I'd watch it, and if I was bored and had nothing else to do/watch, I'd put it on. It wasn't my favorite movie and it wasn't my go to movie, it was always just something to watch for me.

The movie was about half way in when the door bell rang. Everyone groaned because no one wanted to get up. I looked over at the rest of them as time went by, all of us hoping who ever it was would leave once they realized no one was coming. We silently continued to watch the movie until the doorbell rang again. I heaved a heavy sigh as I got up and headed towards the door. The sun was leaking through all the windows, warming the tile floor and the house to a cozy temperature. I walked to the front door and unlocked it.

"Hello? How can I help you?" I ask as I open the door, but I drop my smile when I look into chocolate brown eyes that felt like they were melting me. I wanted to smile, but instead I was filled with guilt. I have a connection with Luca. It's undeniable and I don't know how I feel about it. I love it, but it scares me at the same time. Yet, a few days ago I had a magical night with a mysterious Spiderman, so does this make me a cheater? Is what I'm feeling for Luca normal and something not so special? Am I considered a cheater although Luca and I aren't even official? Either way, this didn't settle right in my stomach. He smiled and started to step inside, but I shook my head and closed the door a little.