Trying Something New (DISCONTINUED)

Alone

School was coming up in a week and I didn't have the energy or will to do anything. Oliver has been trying to make it up to me, he has been apologizing, bringing me presents, and even had the little ones try to help him. I finally found out Kels was ignoring Oliver for the same reason as I was now. Luca stopped by and I heard yelling between Oliver and Luca. I even heard Kels screaming at them to stop, but even then I had no urge to get up. I knew what was happening; I knew Oliver was beating him up, probably butchering him by the way Kels was yelling, but why would I stop it? Both of them deserved it.

I shook out the dark thoughts and got up, putting on a pair of ripped jean shorts and a t-shirt. I slipped on some running shoes and grabbed my bag as I headed out, texting Charlie I was heading out of the house now. I opened my door and from the corner of my eye. I could see him standing there. I ignored him and kept walking past him, not bothering to spare him even a glance.

"Payton. Please, I'm so sorry, words can't express how sorry I am. Can you please just look at me-"

"Kels I'm heading out! I'll be back later to make dinner!" I yelled over my shoulder, interrupting Oliver's hundredth apology, most likely more than that. Kels popped out of her room, peeking her head out as she nodded at me and gave me a thumbs up.

"Okie dokie, don't be back too late!" She yelled and I smiled at her. Her hair is a mess on top of her head and her eyes focused solely on me. I nodded my head and rushed down the steps.

"Payton, Wait! I really need to explain-" Oliver said as he grabbed my arm and pulled me around. I tore my arm away from his, but for the first time in the last week, he grabbed it again. His grip solid and firm as he turned me around, my eyes meeting his own hazel like ones now. His eyes had dark circles underneath and his skin looked pale. He looked just as bad as I did. I know my hair is a mess and oily. I know my skin is pale and glistening with sweat, my eyes no doubt are still slightly swollen with dark circles, and my strength definitely depleted. His expression was determined, but apologetic.

"Look Payton, I'm going to say this as fast as I can before you leave. I know what I did was unforgivable, I know I hurt you, but I never meant to. When I first found out he was dating Kaylee, it was after you guys had kissed for the first time. I was angry, I was about to pounce on him and beat him to a pulp, but he promised me he would choose someone within the next few days. After that I never really saw him with Kaylee again so I thought he had chose you. I even made out with Kaylee to confirm and she didn't fight it so I thought that sealed the deal. If I would had known he was still dating her you know I would have-"

"You shouldn't have waited," I whispered as fresh tears stung my eyes. They burned so much I wanted to rub them and close them tightly, but I knew that wouldn't relieve the pain. He couldn't tell me he did this because he cared about me. If he's known for that long, he should have told me right away instead of believing someone else. I felt my strength leaving me as my tears fell, "You still don't understand. Oliver I'm you sister, I'm your family, I'm your blood. Whether what you did was justified or not, I'm still hurt. You hurt me Oliver," I whispered, my emotions getting the best of me. I choked on a sob and laid my hand on his that was still gripping my arm, "Oliver look at me and tell me the truth. Did you truly believe they had broken up? Did you truly believe I wouldn't get hurt?" I ask.

"Yes, I did," he said, his voice strong. He looked at me and desperately gripped my arm as he pulled me into a hug. His arms encircled me and I didn't have the power to pull away, physically, mentally , and emotionally, "I wanted to tell you the moment I found out, but you looked so happy. I figured if he didn't choose you, you'd be okay because you hadn't done anything else but kiss. Once I stopped seeing them together, I figured they broke up. I didn't want you to know they dated, so I avoided you and Kaylee being alone for too long. I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry I caused you so much pain, but let me help heal you."