We Saved Each Other (Tommyinnit)

4-Worthless

I know the last chapter said part 1 but just you wait, and book cover change pog?Also thanks for 6 reads on chapter 1 :D!

⚠️TW
Suicidal thoughts
Verbal abuse
Cursing
Death mentions

Lia's POV
Hours earlier

I woke up to light pouring through my windows. Mondays were always the hardest to wake up. I started to pull myself out if bed but winced at the sudden pain in my chest. It felt like there was a car sitting on my chest. Right my binder, I thought to myself . My foster "mother" made me wear it to church yesterday. She believes that if I can play the role of a boy in public to gain more respect I can dress like and be a girl in private. I wasn't trans and I liked being a girl so I followed her rules.

After finally getting out of bed I made my way to my bathroom to start my routine. After a long shower I did my hair and got changed. I looked at myself in the mirror. I have bellybutton length wavy brunette hair. I had freckles lightly decorating my face with green eyes to complement. I was wearing jean shorts, a white t-shirt and my old rundown fans. On both my lower arms you can see small scars that litter my arms from top to bottom.

After that I made my way downstairs for some food. I poured myself a small bowl of rice krispes and a banana. I sat down and began to eat in peace. Then I heard the bedroom door open and footsteps towards the kitchen. I sighed " here we go again" I thought. As madam forum walk into the room I walked in front of her and went to my knees.

"Good morning madam forum"
"Mornin child" forum said in a tired voice. I continued to eat my cereal as she scoped out the kitchen.

" where are the fucken bananas?!" She said in a stern voice.
"I f-finished off the bunch this morning" I said in a quiet voice.

"How dare you! first you eat all the bananas then you eat breakfast you fat pig!!" She screamed.

I cowered and pushed my bowl towards her.

"Sorry madam f-forum" I choked out trying not to stutter.

" sorry doesn't cut it you worthless piece of shit. And don't stutter in front of me!" She yelled. It looked like she was on something because her eyes were bloodshot. I wasn't Surprised though because these kinds of things were daily.

3rd person POV

At madam forums home she houses six children three boys and three girls. But Lia is the only one who gets verbally abused, the only one who has chores, the only one who has a bedroom the size of a closet and the only one who has to switch genders often. It all seems unfair and everyone knows it except for the other kids and lia.

Lia is always blamed for everything and in front of the other kids she is treated like the favourite. And that created a hatred for her in the other kids eyes. This has been going on her hole life, starting at the day her parents died in a car crash to know were she is 16.

Every day madam forum degrades, insults and verbally attack Lia . And Lia feels like she deserves it. She feels like she is a piece of shit, like she is a fat pig, like she is a brat, and like she is

worthless.

Load POV
Time skip to about 2 o'clock

I was just sitting on the couch on my phone. My hands were shaking and I was quietly crying. Me best and only friend Katie just told me we can't be friends anymore. I didn't know why till I read closer.

Bestie/Katie

I am sorry but we
Can't be friends anymore

But why 😥

Because your mom told
me what kind of person
You really are

And who is that?!

A worthless piece of shit
Who killed her parents and
Bully's and traumatizes other
Kids at the foster home

What! No!

Don't play dumb with me
She said that you have been
playing me this whole time!

So all I have to say is I hope
You die!!

You were blocked by this contact

I started to sob again looking at the conversation. If my best friend even said I am worthless maybe I am. Then it dawned on me, madam forum made her say all this. Suddenly my sadness was consumed by rage and I got up and started to walk towards her office. Anger started to boil out of me like I am a teapot.

Once I got to her door I took a deep breath, I knew going in there screaming would not help me. Once I was semi calm I lightly knocked on her door hoping she would think it was a younger kid.

" come in" she said in an unexpressed voice. The second she saw me she glared at me.

"What do you way pig!" She said clearly annoyed.

"What did you say to Katie" I said sternly her annoyed face immediately tuned in to a demonic grin.

"all I told her was the truth" she said with a smile.

"None of that was true!" I snapped back in a loud voice. Tears were now threatening to fall down my face. She looked taken aback for a moment by the sudden volume but her face went right back to its twisted grin. I couldn't believe that she thought she was right.

" she even told me she hoped I would die!!" I screamed and her my face now freely inviting tears to fall. Madam forum slowly standed up and walked towards me. She bent down in front of me so we were face to face.

"Cause everyone does" she whispered in my ear. All my anger and determination was replaced with sadness and depression.

"If you died right now no one would care, no one would morn, no one would grimace the horrific event. Everyone would celebrate, rejoice and thank the lord because all you are is

Worthless."

Right then and there I flung the door open and ran down the stairs. The could hear laughing coming from the office and I ran out of earshot. Then I put on my shoes and ran out the door tears still streaming down my face. I ran and ran and ran till I reached a familiar spot. As I walked onto the bridge millions of thoughts rushed through my head.

I have spent my hole life being told how terrible I was and I finally reached my tipping point. When I reached the middle of the bridge I carefully climbed on the railing knowing I might want to think more once I'm up there.

And that brings us to now I am currently sitting on a bridge railing lost in my thoughts. I thought I was alone but then I noticed the crowd behind me, what hurt me most about that is no one has stepped up to talk to me. I guess madam forum is right I'm just

worthless.

A/N
I hope you enjoyed the long chapter! It was way to much work because I deleted my first draft which really pissed me off so I took a two hour break to cook but I am back and excited to continue updating! Also please comment your opinion on the new book cover!