We Saved Each Other (Tommyinnit)

Bonus chapter - alternate ending

I realized despite this being a said attempt at and an angst book, it wasn't very sad. So I present to you a chapter of gut wrenching heart break. This takes place somewhere in the middle of but he's not aka chapter 29.

⚠️TWS
Cursing
Suicide
Death

Lia's POV

"Im sorry but he slipped away during surgery"

Those words were enough to turn my world upside down, take my growing happiness and snap it. Those words were like a curse, a forbidden language, banned to ever be spoken. They were foreign and unexpected, they felt wrong in to many ways. My head was spinning and my ears rang. I lost my balance and my knees buckled. I fell into someone arms and they guided my to the floor. No tears fell from my eyes, I just stared at nothing.

Then reality of it hit my like a truck and I broke, sobbing into whoever's chest I was leaning on. They gently guided their hands through my hair in attempt to calm me but I barely noticed. Everything inside me was screaming, and I couldn't keep track of my thoughts, my head felt like it was going to burst. I looked up at the person holding me, who appeared to be Dream with teary eyes. My eyes begged him to say it was a nightmare, but he didn't say a word.

I looked around the room, everyone was crying and looking at me sympathetically. I couldn't take it anymore and got up, running out of the hospital. I ran, and ran, the burning feeling in my lungs helping mask the constant pain hitting me from every angle. Drivers look at me with concern and pity as I ran on the side of the road. I tried to block out the terror and menacing thoughts filling my brain but I couldn't keep up.

As I finally finished running, after what felt like an eternity, and stopped I front of the place I always hated. I could taste metallic in my mouth and bright red blood stained my teeth. I looked up at the building and made my way inside using the spare key in the plant. I quietly bit my tongue, containing the screams I was desperate to let free. Eventually I made my way upstairs and in front of the door labeled Mia.

As I entered I saw her, sitting on her bed and reading like nothing ever happened. I hated to bring her sadness but I needed her, and she should know. I let out a quiet sob once I stepped inside and her eyes darted to me. Her face was instantly coated with confusion but she quickly got up. Right away I broke into sobs once again, and she led me two her bed. Despite me being older she still managed to comfort me ever so slightly, but thoughts kept creeping into my mind.

He's gone, forever

He's never coming back

I'm forever lonely

He was killed

I could've saved him

I should've just told someone

I've lost him

He will never be a dad

Never be a husband

Never be a grandfather

Never turn 18

Never kiss me again

Never say I love you again

So many more things haunted my mind. I looked at Mia and my eyes told her exactly what happened. Her expression turned pained and I understood why. I got up once again, not being able to handle the silence and got up, leaving the house and passing a very confused mrs. Forum. I began walking to the one place I could think,

the place this all started.

As I reached she bridge I rested my shaky hands on the rusted railing. The sunset coated my face and the river slowly running below me set a beautiful scene for such an ugly feeling.

He was just a kid

He was nothing but kind

He was smart

Loving

Caring

He listened to his fathers rules

He abided,

Yet he was punished in a way that can't be reversed

All because he never said anything

I never said anything.

So I think you knew what was coming. I know this isn't what he wanted for me but I can't be here any longer. I climbed up on the railing I stood, wobbling trying to balance. I took one last look back before letting my body fall. As I hit the water the familiar buzz in my heart hit me. I closed my eyes and let the water take me,

It wasn't particularly peaceful. It was painful, but I outlasted, my mind on the future goal.

Eventually the pain stopped, and was replaced with numbness. Not a warm blissful numbness, a cold rough numbness. Eventually I gained the strength to pull my stiff eye lids open. It was dark, too dark, like nothing I had ever seen before. I slowly got to my feet and looked around. It was just darkness, other that the rusty street lamp above me. I began to run at full speed, hoping to see anything.

It seemed like I had ran for hours, but I felt nothing. No shortness of breath, no pain in my lungs, no ache in my legs. Just as I began to lose hope I saw a small glimmer of light. I ran faster if that was even possible until I reached the light. I felt like all my hope had been crushed, because it was. the old street lamp from moments before stood Idly, showing I had gone no where.

I decided not to give up and turned left, breaking into another run. But of course I got the same result, having some hope and then ending up at the street lamp. I ran twice more, the other way, and behind me. I don't know why I kept running, probably because I wasn't ready to face what I did. I made a mistake. A terrible, unforgettable, and unforgivable mistake.

Finally as I reached the street lamp for the fourth time, I accepted it. I broke into a sob, and leaned against the lamp. I slid down the pole and held in my knees.

I feel so alone

It's so dark

It was a mistake

I want to go back

I'm forever alone