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CHAPTER 3

I can hear the singing crickets outside my window. It rained hard last night, I also rained out all my resentments along with it, and this morning I can feel the coldness of the wind breezing from the window pane. Here I am touching every corner of my face and imagining how it looked like before infront of my mirror.

My phone rang so I reached for it and let it spoke.

"Stephanie, naka ready na ang mga pagkain mo sa ref ha. Yung mga nasa taas is for this week tapos yung mga nasa baba ay para next week."  ate said with a mild voice.

I just let a sigh. Am I really living like this?

"Microwavable ang lahat nang 'yan. Then I also organized your room."  she added. "dalhin mo lagi ang cellphone mo ha para lagi kitang matawagan."

I just nodded kahit hindi naman niya ito nakikita.

I started to fix myself even I' m still loss. I did everything cautiously. I reached for the fridge and looked for something to put in to microwave. Good thing Ate put magnet signs on the microwave so I did not have hard times using it. I went to my room using my walking cane and tried to find some clothes. From my wardrobe up to the step ins. Luckily I managed to do it myself. I just wish that I still look good with all my stuffs.

I carefully walked towards the front door feeling anything that might hit me or on something I can fall on. I set my right foot off when I already knew it was the ground. Then I slowly reached for my coffee table. I sat on the chair and tried to sense the surroundings. I can hear some foots steps of passers by and smiling at their greetings but aside from that, I am preoccupied and bothered by my situation right now.

Am I really living like this? I was never ready for this. I didn't imagine that I will be like this. Never in my wildest dream that I will be this pathetic!

I lost my sight after that incident. The last thing I remember is that Ran Sun-Hee cheated on me and that bitch Marites betrayed me. I thought that was just because of my welling tears that my sight blurred but little did I know it was an indication, no a result of stress. I didn't think that stress may lead to blindness.

Yes. I am now blind.

Love made me blind.

And now I literally am.

I'm living like this for two months but I'm still not used to it. It is really fucking hard to adjust with all the things I used to before. With my morning rituals, food, laundries and everything. I'm not even sure if my clothes or shoes were in the right pair.

I hate him!

Kasalanan niya to.

And I hate myself.

I hate the situation where I am now. But there is nothing I can do. Maybe little by little, I will learn to adjust. I can learn to live with it.

I was busy day dreaming when I heard someone spoke in front of me.

"Anyeong, how are you?" I ignored it. Maybe I wasn't the one he is talking to.

"I am from the Philipines, how about you?" dugtong ng lalaki.

I didn't bother to answer. Baka nanggo.good time lang. Mahirap na baka pagnakawan ako. Bulag pa naman ako.

He cleared his throat and continued

"Pasensiya ka na ha. Di pa kasi ako marunong magkorean saka English-carabao lang kaya ko." he finally said.

Napakunot naman noo ko at napataas ang kilay.