Honey Magazine/My Sweet Proposal: Todo Masaya

Chapter 10.5

I pick up my cellphone the moment it begins to ring.

(Kana...?)

Miki "Hey, Masa?"

Masaya "...Oh, it's you."

Miki certainly has her annoying moments, but she's still my cute little sister.

But honestly, I'm a bit surprised hearing from her.

I wanted it to be Kana.

I want to hear her voice.

But I'm sure I'd want to see her the moment I do.

And if I see her, I'm sure I'd want to embrace her...

Masaya "What is it?"

Miki "Well, sort of bunch of things."

Masaya "Huh?"

Miki "Can I ask you something?"

Masaya "What?"

(She never changes...)

I force myself out of my dream-like state. To keep myself from thinking about Kana, I try my best to actually listen to what my sister has to say. Still, reality is relentless.

Miki "Masa, do you still like Kana?"

Masaya "...What?"

Miki "Oh come on. Don't 'what' me- Just answer the question."

Masaya "...Why are you even asking?"

Miki "Hehehehe. Well, no worries if you don't want to answer."

Masaya "Wait a minute-"

Miki "Anyway, that's all I wanted to ask. But if you don't want to answer, that in itself is a pretty telling answer, so-"

Masaya "Cool, nice talking to you."

Whether what she claimed was true or not, I hang up, cutting off her mid-sentence.

But as the voices from the office fade around me, a sudden feeling of loss comes over me.

Masaya "...Don't ask me questions like that!"

My words are louder and clearer that I anticipated they'd be. That's how much this one phonecall- This one question- has shaken my heart.

(It's obvious I still like her.)

The person who shoes this path is undeniably me.

I still think this was the best decision for her, but when I think about my own sake, I wonder if I made the right choice.

(I wish I could be with her right now. Even if I know I can't...)

Kana is already trying to distance herself from me.

And I know that I need to start doing that too.

But for some reason, I can't stop thinking about her, and how much I want to see her...

Masaya "...Kana..."

The moment her name leaves my lips, I can't stop myself.

Memories of our time together come flooding back...

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Kana "Hey! Don't touch me there..."

Masaya "You're the one with their head in the clouds."

Kana "Pfft...!"

As she stares lazily out of the window, I take Kana in my arms.

And the moment my skin meets hers, I'm immediately comforted.

Masaya "...You smell good. What is it?"

Kana "...I just changed shampoos."

Masaya "I see."

(Maybe that's it, but...it feels more like, the smell of her skin is different...)

Making one more audible sniff on her neck, I feel myself becoming intoxicated by her scent.

What's more, I feel a sense of happiness take over.

Kana "Could you not sniff me? We're not animals."

Masaya "Then what should I do?"

Kana "How should I kno- Mmn..."

I cut her off with a kiss and push her down on the sofa just like that.

Without resistance, I continue kissing her even more passionately.

Kana "...Masaya..."

Masaya "Would you rather do it here or the bed?"

Kana "The bed..."

She timidly whispers her answer to me, and upon hearing her words, I feel I can at least hold myself back until we reach the bed...

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(I can't tet nostalgia get the best of me...)

I lost Kana.

Which means I need to try even harder to get her, and whatever we had, back.

Even though I know getting back to how things were before won't be easy, right now, that's all I want.