a/n: to my closest friends- the ones who are on wattpad, and the ones who are not.
blue bracelet for my 14th birthday,
each bead is one of our memories,
one for every fight we had,
and others for all our apologies-
i'm still sorry.
at school, i lean my chair forward, because
you're an expert at knowing the best
shallow things to make me laugh,
i say them to you back,
and we laugh until my chair falls over.
(more laughs.)
sometimes i feel like,
the universe has magically intertwined our minds,
you always know what my thoughts are,
before i even know how to say them aloud.
your soul is a home that I haven't been to for years,
but i'm always welcomed there.
i never thought that we'd have a last.
i don't want to be a rude trespasser,
but what's going on inside your head?
did i really know you? or was it all just pretend?
i want to support you, but i hate to admit,
that i want to be a part of your happiness, too.
and even when i feel like it's our last,
i know that you're always there,
and i know that even when you're breaking down,
for things that you can't figure out,
you'll still love me.
even when i'm selfish, even when i'm wrong,
even when i was weak, when i should have been strong,
even when i should've left it alone, i picked up the phone.
and even though, i'm angry,
i'll always listen to you and try my best to make you feel loved.
i always thought that i'd fall in love
with someone who would romantically define the very word love,
but it's just another thing that i was wrong about.
because loving you helped me realize what it was.
it's the little things, notes that we passed during class,
talking about cute guys, as if we even had a chance,
and it's the bigger things, like the promise of
coming home and knowing that you'll be there,
to listen to me as i whine about my day,
while you whine about yours-
this is the peace i've always longed for.
