Misunderstood

Chapter 37

A few months later I started to fell better and I knew Braden eventually had to go back to work even if that meant leaving me to go on tour.

I'm going to miss him so much.

"I promise I will call you every night" he said.

I smiled and said to him "you better"

He kisses me quickly "I will. Is there anything you need before I leave?"

"No.." I say.

"Okay I'll call you tonight." He says before shutting the door behind him.

"Well," I thought "I did a good job of keeping my newest round of depression from him."

I'm trying to not be so depressed but it's hard. It's like a never ending battle, constantly trying to fight those demons in my head.

I couldn't decide whether to call Braden, (and worry him) call mist and my dad (while they were on vacation?) or re-admit myself to the hospital (nobody would care or notice right?)

My phone rings.. It's my dad.

"Hello?" I say.

"Hey pumpkin" he says "just checking in"

"Did you not hear what happened?!" I yell into the phone.

"What happened?" He asks.

"Mom died!" I say trying not to cry.

"Oh yeah. I'm sorry pumpkin " he says.

"Stop calling me that! Do you not care that mom died?" I scream.

"Misty is right here. " He says.

"Okay but when are you coming home?" I ask.

"Sunday and what do you mean your mom is dead? She's standing right next to me. " He says.

"What do you mean?" I ask frustratingly.

"Misty?" He says questioningly.

"She's not my real mom and you know that." I say.

"Honey, Angela went down hill mentally when we found out she miscarried. "

"How's uh Aiden? " He asks.

"Who is Aiden?" I ask.

"Your boyfriend? "

"His name is Braden." I say.

"Sorry, old mind" he says making an excuse.

"Yeah.. Whatever.. I'll see you in a few days." I say.

"Don't you give me attitude young lady! You still live under my roof!"

I hear Sadie in the background saying "come on daddy let's go on the merry-go-round! "

"Well dad I guess I better go I have homework to do......." I say.

"Okay. Bye. I love you." He says.

I hang up.

"yeah.....love you too....."

I want to call Braden but I know that I can't. I can only do that at night or for emergencies. Wait, does this count as an emergency?

I try to call his phone but he doesn't answer.

I leave a message.

"Hey Braden it's Chloe I need to talk to you when you get this it's important I love you. "
I lay on the couch and fall asleep.

A few hours later my phone rings.

"Hello?" I say into the phone.

"Hi hunny." Braden says.

"Hey......" I say softly "I guess you got my message. " I say hesitantly.

"Yes.. What is wrong?" He asks.

"I'm still depressed "

"I'm sorry baby.. Depression never completely goes away, It always comes back. But try and keep fighting and you will win. Don't let depression win. I love you." He says.

"I wish you were here. Misty dad and Sadie won't be back until Sunday and I'm here alone. I don't know if you know this but my mom committed suicide. " I say.

"I'm sorry I can't be there. I miss you a lot. Yes I know about your mom, you told me."

Oh yeah I forgot. My dad didn't know or he didn't care.........not sure which hurts more......"

"Where are you? " I ask. hoping he's not that far away.

"We are in New York right now." He says.

"Oh....." i say. "I guess you can't come get me then."

"Yeah I'm sorry baby." Braden says.

"It's okay. " I say.

"I have to go sing again hun.." He says.

"Okay bye I love you. " I say. I hang up.

I sighed.

I'm so bored and alone, wish I had someone to hang out with.

I call the airport.

"do you ha any flights from Reno Nevada to New York? " I ask the lady on the phone.

"Yes. Hold on one moment." The lady says.

She puts me on hold.

"ugh I don't have all night " I say to myself.

5 minutes later the lady is back on the phone.

"Yes we do have flights from Reno to New York"

"When?" I ask.

" tomorrow morning " was her reply.

"Oh.." I say.

"Dang it" I thought.

"Is there a problem? " She asks.

"Do you have any for today?" I ask her.

"8pm so in 2 hours." She says.

"Sure that might work." I say.

"Okay " she says. "That will be $150 one way or $300 for roundtrip."

"I don't have that much money!" I thought.

"Um nvermind i"ll just stay here." I said.

"Okay. Have a good night." She says.

I suddenly wanted to cry. I dialled Braden's number.

it went to voicemail.

I hung up. There was no sense in telling him how stupid I was.

My phone ringss an hour later, it's Braden.

"Hey babe I saw that you called. " He said.

"Yeah.. Sorry." I say.

"It's okay is something wrong? " He asks.

"Well.. I wanted to come and fly to New York to see.." I trailed off.

"To see what?" He asks.

"You." I say.

"Oh" he says. well I'm back at the hotel now. I have to get some sleep so I can catch my flight in the morning. "

"Okay bye, I love you." I say.

"I love you too." He says.

I hang up.

I decide to call Marissa.

"Hello?" She says.

"Hi Marissa its Chloe." I say.

Oh hey, Chloe. Can I call you back? I'm hanging with my boyfriend right now."

"yeah, I guess." I say.

"Is something wrong?" She asks.

"Yeah but I'll be fine. I will call you later." I say.

"Okay." She says.

I start crying I really miss Braden.

I don't think she hears me crying because all she says is "bye" and hangs up.