ℓιє- J-Hope FF

Chapter 16

Y/n POV:

As I continue down the familiar path of concrete I remember the last e few months with the boys. These were the best days of my life, I'll cherish these memories forever. I won't let anyone take that away from me.

I wish I could have said more to them but it is what it is. I hope to meet them in my next life.

I continue into the darkness as I reminisce the good memories in each part. My memories playing out as I walk by our favourite coffee shop, or our favourite spot in the park, even the tiny cracks in the pavement that cause Jimin to stumble and fall flat onto his face and my favourite memory the rooftop of the school when hoseok asked to be my friend.

The biggest smile stretches along my face with the most warm tears that flooded my eyes and streamed down my face.

I'm gonna miss you guys.

My steps come to a halt as I reached my destination...

Before me was a beautiful lake that Yoongi introduced me to days prior. The night sky was flooded with stars and the lake reflected every one. The moonlight gently glimmered over the water and gave light as to what I should do next.

I sat for a second, remembering the talk with yoongi the other day. He honestly was like an older brother to me, in fact they all are. They all are like brothers and I love them. That's why I have to do this.

With my new found determination and shaky hands I reach in my pocket for my pill bottle. Unscrewing the cap I brought the bottle to my mouth and in one big gulp took as many as possible. Some I was unable to down so they dropped to the floor as if it was foreshadowing what was going to happen to me.

I then gathered the strength to stand up again and started making my way to the sea of stars ahead of me. I reached down to try to touch one of the stars however it was so cold. And in the ripples of the water I could see my own reflection. I was so revolted at the sight. I was starting to go pale.

I was beginning to have pain throughout my body and I felt very nauseous however I don't mind. I deserve this.

I stood up once again and started walking into the lake. Slowly and peacefully. Step by step. It was so peaceful.

Finally some peace and quiet. No more drama, or failing people. No more nightmares or angry parents. No more school, no more miserable life, no more pain and most of all no more letting the boys down.

Each step I took I let go of one bit of my life and the lake got deeper. It was sort of therapeutic. The water was hugging me, comforting me and showing me there is a painless death. I can now die in peace and I'm not alone. The water was cold however somewhat warming. The water reached higher and higher on my body and when it reached my chest I closed my eyes only to....