ℓιє- J-Hope FF

Chapter 12

< Y/N POV >

I start to feel my senses come back to me as a warm hand found it's way to my shoulder in a reassuring way. I can hear the bustling of the streets again, I can feel the cold,hard concrete beneath my knees and most of all I can see actual people instead of blurred figures. My cold dead eyes look up to the source of the sudden warmth. It was......

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Min Yoongi.

Empathetic eyes stared back at me, as his hunched form comforted me from behind. Which was unusual from Yoongi. It made me sick. He pities me. I really am pathetic. He sees how weak and pathetic I am and now he pities me. At that moment my thoughts came to a stop and I froze. Yoongi pulled me into a hug. I couldn't take it no more, the frustration, the anger, the sadness all of it! Just flowed through me. I cried in his arms still collapsed on the floor using his body as my pillar so I can stay balanced. I really am a sorry excuse for a human.

What surprised me the most was.....he didn't mind. He just let me use him as a pillar and a tissue for my tears.

After a few minutes I started to compose myself and was back to a more stable state. Although the memories from my past still linger my current fright and sadness subsided so I can think rationally. Well more rationally then earlier when I was walking around aimlessly.

Yoongi realised my sudden rationality and stood up, extending his hand to help me up. I accepted and stood on my own two feet, which started to ache from all the walking about. How long was I gone. It must've been like half an hour or so.

" what time is it?"

My hoarse voice stated. Feels like I haven't spoken in years. Kind of similar to the first time I spoke to Hoseok.

S: "Around 9pm"

My eyes widened in shock. I was walking around since the morning. 12/ 13 hours of walking aimlessly.

S: "Hoseok's worried so we should hurry on home. I'll text him on the way. He's probably tearing the town apart trying to find you."

I looked down in disappointment. I've done it again. Made Hoseok worry. I clench my fists out of frustration. I'm so pathetic and selfish.

S: " dont beat yourself up. What they did to you is inexcusable and serious."

" sorry" I mumbled very quietly.

I didn't want to face Yoongi so I kept my gaze to the ground but I could feel his eyes bore into me from the side.

S: " I never want to hear that word from you again."

I was taken aback and looked at Yoongi in confusion.

S: " Dont you dare ever apologise ever again! You have done nothing wrong! Trust me I know it's hard."

At Yoongi's words I wanted to find out more, but won't I be prying.

Eventually after walking for a bit we reached a beautiful lake, surrounded  by trees and it's completely isolated. It was beautiful. The Water was shimmering as it bathed in the moons distant and cold glimmer. Silhouettes of the trees surround as if to protect from the outside world. The moon giving a sense of lightness to the area but also comfort in its cold embrace.

Yoongi sat down as I mimicked his behaviour only not too close to him.

S: " this is my safe area. It's where I go if I just need space from the world."

I nod at his statement and decide to stay quiet so he can rant.

S: " there was a time I was just like you, you know? I mean I'm still struggling but I'm a lot better then where I was. I was in a dark place."