ℓιє- J-Hope FF

Chapter 8

Y/N POV

I shifted to get more comfortable in my chair as I looked down at the floor. I really wanna tell him but where do I start? Think. think. Think. Think. Aish fine ill start at beginning we are gonna be here a while.

I slightly shook as I slowly breathed in, hoping Hoseok doesn't abandon me like the rest of people in my life. Out of all of the people I've met i want Hoseok to understand. 

"I will begin with the very beginning but this is a bit of a story so please just hold on."

h:" its fine i can listen."

"So you already know i was adopted, i was adopted at the age of 6 and quickly thrown into school. At that time I was treated normally, things were going well, i had friends, people didn't treat me invisible and most of all which is shocking my 'parents' actually cared for me. When I joined the school people wanted to be my friend but because I was an ex orphan began to look at me in shame and pity. I didn't mind much to be honest, i wanted to be alone. However, rumours and everything spread about stuff I didn't do and the person behind it was a little kid named Ted. I lost whatever friends I had left as they wanted to save themselves. When I was eleven eventually Ted and his gang of friends were known as the class bullies and of course I was their target. I had no one and came home crying everyday because i was beaten badly by Ted. From cuts to bruises to broken bones there was always something and it was all because i was an orphan. At this point in time I felt no one loved me especially since I was abandoned by my own parents from the beginning."

My eyes began to water as the vision began to blur, thinking of those moments again makes my skin crawl. I choked on my sobs and breathed deeply as Hoseok had rubbed my back with his hand to comfort me.

"One day it got really bad. After school i was meant to wait for my parents to pick me up so i waited outside the gates but Ted hated my whole existence in his view of escaping the torment for your brain so he got his gang to tie me up and drag me into an empty classroom. I was so scared, i struggled and struggled but the ropes dug at my skin. I screamed but no one heard, no one even dared to come help me and why should they, i was a lowlife to them. At that point Ted pulled out a knife he had on him and pressed it to my throat. He told me to stop screaming or he'd cut me and of course being as afraid i was i stopped. But then he brought the knife to my wrists slowly cutting making blood seep down my arm. He kept cutting and cutting, the pain was excruciating and i screamed louder then ever. I started to feel dizzy and i blacked out. When i woke up it was horror, the sight of blood everywhere. All over the walls, All over my wrists just everywhere then i looked right in front of me on the floor where Ted and his friends. Lifeless. Someone had come in whilst i was collapsed and killed them one by one. It was horrifying. A teacher then came into the classroom and called the police but i was in shock, i couldn't answer the questions. My father was irritated as his daughter was involved in a crime investigations which of course led to a damage in his reputation. He scolded me saying how it was a mistake to adopt me. All i could remember was crying every night."

I wiped the tears that streamed from my eyes and tried to read Hoseok's expression. Is he going to hate me i wondered, there's only one way to find out but i'm scared. Aish I'll just continue.

"since the incident my parents began to hate me a bit and people would avoid me at school, they thought i was the killer as i was the only one that survived. I even had scars on my arms. people began to get afraid but some new people did try to talk. I pushed them away but there was this one girl, Natalie. She was beautiful really and she really cared for me. At least i thought she did, turns out she was dared to talk and become friend but eventually her friends started hating her for some reason so she came back to me. at this point i felt so betrayed so i turned her down. We were on the rooftop so she decided she was gonna end it there. She jumped. I tried to save her but it was too late. people then came up with the idea that i had some sort of curse or i was a killer as anyone that came into contact with me died, so they avoided me. They warned others that were new to not go near me, making up stories and twisting the truth. My parents well they didn't do much, they just despised me. They even moved me out here so they don't have to deal with me. I was a mistake that shouldn't have happened but they couldn't get rid of me otherwise the media would find out and my dad was all about keeping his reputation. They didn't even care about the increasing amount of scars on my body or the bruises or the broken bones they just cared for themselves and its come to the point that now i realise i'm nothing. I'm worth nothing, I'm useless and a waste of space, oxygen and energy."

h: " BUT your not."

Hoseok unexpectedly spoke up. I turned to him as one tear fell from his right eye. Wait he's .......crying???

h: " You Y/n are an amazing human being. You have gone through so much more then i could imagine and that makes you strong. You have scars from your battles as a trophy of the hurdles you overcame. You are beautiful and unique and should really learn to love yourself. This world is cruel and twisted but if you keep at it like you have for the past 17 years of your life i'm sure you will become a splendid woman."

Those words were so touching. My heart pounded as i stare into Hoseok's mesmerising orbs. Does he actually mean that? 

Before i could say anything to protest i was pulled into a hug.

h: "Stop beating yourself up about the past. None of it was your fault, everyone else is to blame and i promise i will protect you from anything like that."

My eyes welled with more tears as my hands travelled up to his chest making balls out of the material in my hands. What did i do to deserve you Hoseok? Were you send from heaven to watch over me or something?

Hoseok chuckled. why?

He leaned to my ear to whisper

" I'm no angel. I'm your sunshine and hope."

Did he just... read my mind!

"No silly I'm not reading your mind."

JUNGSHOOOOK HOLY MOLLY HE'S READING MY MIND!

"Y/n."

I looked shocked.

"How did you read my mind. Are you a psychic?"

Hoseok laughed so hard as i sat there confused.

" silly you were saying your thoughts aloud."

He pulled me into another hug.

" I'm glad you think of me as a guardian angel though. That's what i was hoping to be."

I couldn't help the smile that slowly crept onto my face and that's when i realised. I think i love you Jung Hoseok.

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AUTHOR HERE

I'm sorry her story wasn't as exciting as you probably hoped (( >- < ')) but at least you know now. I know this story isn't the best but i hope you are enjoying it and if you have any ideas or feedback i would greatly appreciate it. I'm sorry i haven't updated a lot but i promise i will get more out soon. anyway i hope you enjoy the rest of your day/night. oh and please can you check out my other story. I'm doing a Jimin ff- its called Serious Dancer. I'm hoping that if you enjoyed this story so far you might like that one :D. just do whatever you want and keep being yourself. Love yourself and peace out.