ℓιє- J-Hope FF

Chapter 9

Y/n POV

A few days past and being with Hoseok in my home and at school was more of a blessing then I thought it would be; although he keeps nagging at me for my bad habits or my low self esteem. But even so I loved his company. He's amazing.

I'm hoping these happy days never leave but I know all too well this is the calm before the storm. I have a disturbing feeling in my gut that something bad is gonna happen. It always does and I know all to well that I'll need to let Hoseok go. He probably doesn't even like me really, he probably pities me. Unconsciously I snorted at my thoughts thinking about how Hoseok would react if he could hear my thoughts. Just imagining the ' HOW COULD YOU EVEN THINK THAT, U ARE A PRECIOUS SEEDLING THAT NEEDS TO BE CARED FOR TO FULLY BLOOM SO SHUT YOUR GOB AND GROW.' Or the ' SHUT IT MUPPET IF I DIDNT LIKE YOU I WOULDN'T HAVE BOTHERED WITH YOUR SORRY ASS'.

I started to laugh as I sat in the living room of my home. It was a warm Saturday afternoon at 5pm. In my opinion it was too bright and early but Hoseok wouldn't let me sleep in but at least he let me stay home. He changed my routines of keeping the curtains shut and much more so now my house was brighter and I was dying from the exposure to light honestly. As if he wasn't enough light in my life I now have a whole world to worry about.

I look around the house and think of all my memories with Hoseok. Even though he knows about my past, he knows what I've gone through, he knows what the monster I am and yet he still accepts me. I start crying with the widest smile and look toward the sky. Thank you whoever brought him to me, please let this last for a little longer just so I can have some sanity before I go.

I was planning my escape from this world. I know it's selfish but I can't take it, I at least want to cherish the last moments I have with people that make me happy. Hoseok and the other members of BTS. I started to get really close to the other members. Honestly if we met under different circumstances I wouldn't mind living the rest of my life with them. Especially Hoseok.

As if on cue the front door of my house opens wide inviting in the biggest ray of light so far blinding my unprepared eyes. Finally after adjusting to the light I see a smiling Hoseok make his way to the sofa, slowly sitting next to me with a bag of snacks in his hand.

Eyeing them, I gave a curious glance to him. He then smiled again saying.

" I was thinking we could have a movie night."

I nodded accepting his explanation as he lays the snacks out in the table.

" you okay?"

I turned to him and nodded again smiling a little to hopefully ease Hoseok's worry from my raging thoughts.

" now I've known you for a few months now and I've lived with you for about a week so by now I know ur telltale signs and one of them is silence. What's up?"

I sighed as he gave a 'I know you like the back of my hand so don't try to escape this' face. I mentally cursed at Hoseok's good observation skills. Where the hell he learn this from?
Aisshhhh I have to think. Thiiinnnkkkk.

" Um it's nothing. Errgh hihi.... just worried about... my parents is all."

"hmmm"

He looked like he was sort of scanning my face. The intensity of the concentration he had fixed to my face made me very uncomfortable and I looked down due to the awkwardness. He started to inch his face closer narrowing his eyes for further inspection this led to me leaning back slightly.

He decided to quickly attack me by tickling my sides causing me to fall back on the sofa and now he was straddling me. I tried my hardest to protest and fight back but I couldn't kick my legs due to the increased weight holding them down  and I couldn't push due to the pressure around my wrists binding them to the sofa and so I was stuck as a worm wiggling about fighting off my worst enemy... The tickles. 😱