Diary of a Emo Girl

Chapter Twenty One

Dear diary,

hey:) been a while eh? Well right now I can say life is pretty good with its ups and downs. As Augustus Waters said I'm always on a roller coaster that goes up my friends. Well in this case friend. But anyways we just had spring break and it was fun. I went to Austin for break (I live in Texas if I haven't mentioned it, Houston specifically) and it was pretty cool. Fuck who am I kidding I've been having shitty mood swings all the time, at least three-five times a day, maybe even more. And it sucks. I'm miserable. But hey something good happened. It's really good. I've mentioned my huge crush on Adam right?

Sure sometimes we can't relate, but I've like really liked him for a long time and me and him are best friends so that didn't work out, but I let him know that I liked him a while ago. And a couple days ago we came up nicknames for each other for fun and decided to do the whole sarcastic darling, honey, babe thing for fun. And by then I thought there was no chance of him liking me anyways and he's too good for me, so I gave up. I really didn't think the whole rebel emo chick and goodie goodie Christian boy thing would work out. But funny thing is that he actually got the guts to tell me he had a crush on me!!!!!!!!!

It was adorable 😂 I honestly don't remember if I ever told you about how much I used to like that kid. I met him through a group chat that my friend started, and we became friends on that. Then I talked to him at school and after that we just started talking to each other almost everyday. And yeah XD A LOT of people thought it would be better if I was with Adam then Russ. And in a way I sorta agree, because Russ was trouble. Sure he was emo and could relate to me in every fucking way possible, but he was too serious for me. I've only legitimately dated one guy so far and that was Dan.

But there were other guys that liked me like Alex, Joey, Mo. And Russ liked me and I liked him too along with Adam, but we never dated. And now Adam likes me and this whole time I've liked him too. So now we're more then friends, but not official. I hope this lasts, and maybe even actually work out.

****mentally I'm just like UGHHHHHHHH I HATE BEING A GIRL AND BEING STUCK WITH ALL THIS GUY SHIT. IM NOT ONE OF THOSE BITCHES THAT PLAYS GUYS. It's not my fault that I have a lot of friends who are guys and they get the wrong idea 😭😭😭😭😭😭 I just wish guys didn't see me that way and they could be satisfied with being friends. I would have no problem with that whatsoever!