Diary of a Emo Girl

Chapter Twenty Four

Dear diary,

Thank god im finally out of school for the summer! At first I just wanted to leave that place although I love the guys and they're great friends I just needed to get out of school, and the worst part was that everyone was stressing out about finals. But in the end it wasnt even that bad! It was actually fun taking my tests with my friends right by my side, it was really fun when me, Grady, Min, Saket, and julian were screwing around before, after, and during the test XD Grady started writing some hilarious fanfics about Vic and Maddie, oh my god they were priceless. Then he wrote one about me and Jesse, and in that time I made a new friend Zack, and thank god he ripped the fanfic about me and threw it away. The reason why there was a stupid fanfic written about me and Jesse was that one everyone wanted him to ask me out and two he actually did two days prior to when the fanfic was written, so me and him are dating now and I really like it. Unlike the other dimwits I've dated he actually has the guts to hold my hand and to hug me whenever the fuck he wants to. And I like that. Yep I like hugging him, cuddling with him and just being with him. Its been a while since I've had a good boyfriend and I hope this one lasts, because I woukd be heartbroken if I lost him because he's my best friend too, he knows everything about me and I know almost everything about him. I hope we last this summer because imma be outta town for a couple weeks and I get to see him like once a week or so. And the weird thing is that im actually starting to miss him like a lot. Its a weird feeling but yeah, whenever he hugs me I just feel safe. But thats just probably how it feels whenever someone bigger than you engulfs you in a hug. But I absolutely refuse to be in love, first of all love is bullshit and it takes a long time for anyone to get me to actually love them. I may have thought I was in love before but that is just infatuation or feelings. Love is something that would take someone like four years to get it out of me. I dont want to think about that, I just want to enjoy my time with Jesse just the way it is right now.