Diary of a Emo Girl

Chapter Twenty Two

Dear diary,

Ok well remember Jesse? Anyways, at first he was a douche but I ended up liking him for a week, then I regretted it and stayed away from him. Anyways the past month me and him started texting a lot and we had so much in common. We are honestly closer then a long term boyfriend-girlfriend. We both have family issues and other stuff that's a bit too personal to say.

And I don't know if I have feelings for him or not, and then at the same time there's Adam, and I don't know what to do about that. Because I like Adam just not as much as I used to, and I'm not so sure about the long distance thing, and since I go through so many problems I just wish I'd have a person actually here by my side if I do date someone. This year has been crap to me, and I just want something good to happen for once. And Jesse is now one of my new best friends, he is pretty awesome and a great person.

Whenever I'm sad, he's always there for me, and lets me vent, helps me when I feel self conscious. And that's a lot of the time to be honest. I used to be bullied all the time since 2nd grade, verbally, cyber, and physically bullied. There's a lot I don't share, but when I met him I guess we just clicked. I'm pretty positive I don't have any feelings for him at the moment, and I really want it to stay that way, because my friendship with his is too precious to lose. And I need to find a way to stop leading Adam on, because I don't think I like him anymore, and I'm happy being single. So far I've dated one guy, Dan, and I liked Russ and Adam for awhile. All the other guys liked me, but I rejected them just so I make things clear for ya ;)