Diary of a Emo Girl

Chapter Seven

Dear diary,

During the time Mo was doing that shit, I only thought of one person, Dan. I missed him. Then I realized that I never got over him. Then I just started hating myself all over again. Like seriously it's been three months since I moved and I couldn't even forget the damn guy.

Every now and then I used to talk to Dan, because he thought we were "friends" again. But it's hard to be friends with the guy that claimed to love you for forever, and said he would even wait 5 years to date you, AND made plans for our "wedding" (honestly I never had any intention for marriage that young but oh well). Yep he really went that deep. I thought maybe I could get him back, so I talked to him.

I found out that the past three months he asked out 5 girls, so that really boosted my ego (note the immense sarcasm) and all those girls were 100 times hotter then me and that was a huge burn on my behalf. And the part that hurt the most is that he asked ME for advice on how to win over a girl. Like seriously, YOU DON'T ASK YOU EX THOSE TYPE OF QUESTIONS!!!!!!!! It hurts like hell! And then my one weakness came in, I find it so hard to be mean to Dan, and trust me I hate that. So I actually helped him, and he got the girl's number. So yeah, for the next three weeks or so I tried to get advice on how to get over that bastard. Nothing worked obviously, the only choice I had was to get a new boyfriend that I actually liked to get over him.

I really don't wanna go through the hardship of dating someone. And every guy deserves a better girl then me. No one should deserve a broken girl like me. I've been suicidal for a long time, because of some dick and my parents always yelling and beating me up. And then I'm a victim to bullying, and people here even beat up girls at school.