The Dark Ember

Transformation

Dad has been off with Hope urging her to hurt him and when she admitted he isn't who she wants to hurt he secured Roman for her to kill. But for me? I have to control my dark urges, you'll be a bad person if you hurt people Ember. Don't be like your father Ember. You're better than that Ember. I was leaning back in a chair on the courtyard kind of hoping to hit my head really hard on the cement, dad walked past and said "Your gonna hurt yourself Em." I mumbled, "That's kind of the point." But I forgot his super hearing so he turned to me "Excuse me?" I sat correctly in the chair and said "Nothing, forget about it." He was gonna say something but Elijah walked up and said "So this is the new parenting style? Allowing your daughter to mercilessly torture that boy." dad said "That boy held her and Hayley hostage, almost killed Hope, and succeeded with her mother. So if my daughter decides to end his life then that would make her someone who vanquishes her enemies, following in the footsteps of her father and her uncle." 

Elijah said, "She and Ember were supposed to be better than us, Niklaus." Dad said "She's ill. If this brings her some relief without Ember taking her pain then nothing else matters." Freya walked in and said quietly to me "Em come on hun, we have to get you to the buyou before the full moon rises." She stood my hand and I said "But momma was supposed to be here, she promised to help me." Freya said, "Your dad will help you, and I know you miss her but you can't fight this, it will hurt worse." I said, "He won't help me, aunt Freya, he is too busy with Hope, everyone is always too busy with Hope." I walked out to the car and waited for Freya. She got in and drove me to the bayou and deep into the forest where it was just the two of us, well I thought it was just us too until Freya said "Now I'm no expert since I'm just a witch, your mom understood and would have been better to help you than i. So I asked an amazing woman to help you through this since your dad is busy." 

I heard movement behind me making me turn, Keelin walked out of the trees and I hugged her, she said "Your mom didn't want this for you, but only because of what you are about to go through. Emmy this is going to hurt so you need to concentrate on breathing ok, breathe through the pain. But baby doesn't fight it, it could take hours if you fight and the pain will make you want to fight it off. Allow it in, let it consume you, and remember you are Hayley Marshall's daughter, you are stronger than you know and you can do this. Once it's overrun, ill be with you and we will run free, ill show you how fun it can be. And Ember remembers after this one turn, you will be 2 parts of your tribrid self so you will be able to turn at will." I felt the snap of a few bones and I dropped to the ground and groaned.

Have you ever felt all of your bones break little by little? No? Well it sucks, I tried to focus on breathing but at some points the pain was too much id start to fight it and Keelin would say "No Emmy, don't fight it, let it take you. Submit to the pain and it will be over." By the time the pain stopped, I stood there taking deep breaths and Freya said "That was 3 hours Keelin!" Keelin said, "She kept fighting it Freya, if her mom or dad had been here she might not have fought against it so hard." I heard my dad say "If I had known I would have been here." Freya said "Klaus she feels unimportant, second to Hope. I tried to get your attention but you told me you had to deal with Hope first, then you'd talk with Em. So that's on you." I ran off as Freya yelled "Em! Damn it!" Keelin's wolf ran past me and I rushed to keep up with her, but, man running in wolf form through the forest... nothing is better than this. By dawn, I was human again and I was happy. 

I had just gotten out of the shower when Hope came in and said "Im sorry Em." I was still picking out my outfit as I said "For what Hope?" She said, "For dad being so focused on me and not being there for your first transition." I dropped the towel to get dressed as I said "It's not your fault Hope, he is the parent. If dad wanted us to both be his priority he'd make us both his priority. It's my fault..." I sat on my bed and she started to brush my hair "How is it your fault?" I said "Those letters mom wrote? They are full of us, she talked about how wonderful and well behaved you were... but me? It was all about my problems, the trying to kill myself, the getting drunk and having sex, there were a few I stole from mom without her knowing and they were still about the bad things I did, like when I triggered my curse, or when I told her I wished I was never born, or when I was horrible to you. I understand why you are more important Hope, you're the good twin." 

She wrapped her arms around me and pulled me back against her chest and said "Emmy we are twins, we are both bad and good. And... we both triggered our curse. Dad and Marcel set up the church for me to release the magic and kill a bunch of supernaturals and we didn't know Declan and Bill were in there. Declan survived but... Bill did not. Will you go with me to the cemetery?" I said, "Sure sissy, let's go." We grabbed hands and walked to the cemetery where she placed a new flower. Hope said, "What are you thinking about?" I said, "I wonder if Kaleb will ever ask me out." She said, "Not if he ever meets dad." I giggled and smacked her arm when he walked up behind us. 

Hope said "You didn't have to come." he said, "I wanted to make sure you both were all right." Hope said "I don't know why we leave flowers, it doesn't do them any good. It's not much of an apology for killing someone, but mom made Emmy do it, so I figured she'd want me to as well." Dad said "Unintentionally. You rid the city of those vermin. You have nothing to apologize for." Hope said "Don't make it sound so noble. Yeah, yeah, I killed a few bad guys but it was as much to get the magic out of me as anything else. Besides, it's not like it lasted more than a few hours. Well, at least he gets his revenge next month when the full moon comes." He walked toward us and said "Hope, however much you dread your first transformation, once you go through it, you're gonna feel better. You can ask your sister." Hope said "I don't know if I dread it, or if I wish I could turn and never turn back. Mom said that after the pain, it's one of the best feelings in the world. And Emmy you seem so at peace and happy and I've never seen you this good. I just can't believe I have to do this without mom, or that you had to Em." 

I said "Yeah I wish mom were there yesterday, but Hope running through the woods with the wind in your fur is better than anything I've ever felt. I wasn't your little sister, I wasn't Emberlyn Mikaelson, it was just me and Keelin and freedom." dad said, "I know, no one can replace your mom, but I do want to help." Hope said "I know, but I need to be alone." dad said "As you wish." and stormed away, I went to move but she hugged me as she cried so I hugged her back. As I hugged her I saw Davina walk up, she said "Hey." Hope pulled away from me and said "Oh. Hey, Davina." we hugged her and she said, "You ok?" Hope said "No. And I'm pretty sure I just drowned the memorial if Emmy's shirt says anything. Oh, uh, I'm so sorry about Josh, by the way." I said, "Me too, he was also so sweet to us." Davina said, "Thank you." Davina said, "How's your head?" Hope said "Buzzing. I can make you a tea that should help. And never underestimate the power of wedding champagne"

Hope said "Do you think they'd let me skip the wedding? It's just with... the way that I feel, I don't want to ruin the day." Davina said "Either of you missing it would ruin the day. Look I know that you have a lot going on right now, but, you know, one thing I learned as a girl with the world on her shoulders at 15 is that you need to live in the moment. Josh taught me that. And you have one thing I didn't, you have a partner in crime, everyone seems to forget there are two of you, but Hope Emmybug is here and she has always been here for you." I said "And I always will be. I love you, Hope." Davina said, "Now go on, ill catch up with you girls." Hope said, "Thank you." 

I walked past Freya's room as Becka said "We may be damaged but we are not doomed by our parent's mistakes. After everything that we have been through, none of us would see a child of ours suffer just to ease our pain." Freya said, "Em get in here please." I slowly walked in and Freya grabbed my hand pulling me to her side and said "How can you say that? This child, our niece tried to kill herself at 10 years old thinking it would make us feel better." I widened my eyes as I realized this topic and then I felt like shit. Becka said "And yet here she sits looking all grown up and gorgeous, because of you, Hayley, Marcel, Davina, and Kol. Freya, you can break the cycle." I said, "Aunt Freya, don't compare your future child to me, I'm the screw-up, compare them to Hope, she is just as selfless and loving and good as you and Keelin are." Freya and Becka hugged me as Freya said "You, my sweet niece are not a screw-up." I chuckled and joked "Did you miss a couple of chapters?" Freya said, "Thank you, both of you, and Em your wrong if Keelin and I have a daughter I want her to have your confidence and your personality, and maybe mix it with Hope's obedience." I laughed and shoved her off the bed and said "Go, talk with Keelin, I need one aunt to have a wolfie connection with me." She laughed and went to talk to Keelin. I got to the door when Becka said "Em, I know you feel like your unwanted but that is so far from the truth, but Hope is..." I looked at her and said "Dying I know, I have a plan. Don't worry aunt Becka, you guys won't lose my sister." I walked away.