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Epilogue

⏸️Play - Console myself [Rocoberry]

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Diary entry (Hobi's last entry)

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Dear Jimin,

I guess you have finally decided to open my diary or pass it to someone else. I'm writing this note to thank you. Thank you for helping me, all the time. And, I'm sorry. Sorry for troubling you with the burden of my flowers. I remember you asking me to get an operation, and I'm sorry for not listening to you. I'd rather be like this than not love him. Loving him was the punishment I gave myself for hurting him.

And a thousand thanks won't be enough and I don't think I have any other word to express my gratitude. So, thanks again.

Goodbye, Jiminie.

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Dear Namjoon,

Thank you so much for being there for me anytime of the day. And I'm sorry for not being truthful to you. You're my therapist, but I couldn't bring myself to let you know many things. Take care of Taehyung for me. Hope you learn how to be less clumsy. I've seen you say this to many people, but I wanted to tell you this : You're doing great, Joonie. I'm very proud of you! Hang in there.

Goodbye, Joonie.

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Dear Seokjin,

I know you're sad. Guilty as well, but I chose this, hyung. Never once have I regretted liking you, hyung. And, unfortunately, I can never hate you. Don't worry about me, take care of your little step brother and let him enjoy life unlike you. Also, I'm a little mad at you for never introducing that little one to me. But, whatever.

Goodbye, hyungie.

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Dear Taehyung,

I'm sorry, Tae, for many things. But mainly for not acknowledging your feelings. Of course, I knew. You can never hide things from me little brat. And hyung is sorry that I couldn't reciprocate it, I'm sorry for what I put you through. But, to me you were a pink rose. You were something I adored so much and seeing you gave me a surge of happiness all the time. In an other life, I wish to love you. Thanks for loving me, baby.

Goodbye, Taetae.

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Dear Jungkook,

I don't hate you. I could never. And I don't blame you for what had happened. Even in any other situation, Yoongi would've not fell in love with me because this was meant to happen. And I'm very glad that it was you. I request you to take care of Yoongi in my absence. I know I'm asking for so much, but I want to rely on you for this. Take care of yourself. Don't hurt yourself, refrain from getting sick and on top of everything, please be happy? For me. You can do that for me, right? Please Kookie, this is a request from me.

Goodbye, Kookie.

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Dear Yoongi,

I don't know where to start. There's a lot of things I want to tell you, but at the same time I don't have words. I'm sorry, Yoonie, for hurting you. I didn't mean it. You meant so much to me, more than anything in this world and money could never compare to you. Don't feel bad for not having trust on me, it was better that way. I never expected you to love me back, but I want to make this confession. I love you, Gi. I guess you're wondering why I fell in love with you... even I don't know. Funny, isn't it? But I'm glad it was you. I'm happy to have loved you, Min Yoongi. Hope you find love, but unlike mine let it be reciprocated. Thank you for being my first friend and my husband. It was a honor.

And, goodbye, love.

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Yoongi closed the diary, placing his glasses on top of it and let sleep engulf him as he laid on the embrace of his soft mattress.

Even after years had passed, he couldn't stop himself from reading Hoseok's diary. Somewhere he was still regretting that he had not trust Hoseok enough and lost him.

"Goodbye, Seok."

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