Family Remains

"Sissy"

(Sorry its been awhile since an update)

I turned around to see everyone standing there in my hotel room. Dean was standing at the foot of my bed, Sam up by the head talking to Jason quietly, Rachel and Aliana were standing by the balcony door, looking worried.

Ignoring everyone for the moment, I went straight to Jason, just wanting to hold my brother. Sam moved out of my way and Jason held his arms wide open, welcoming me in.

"Sissy," He whimpered.

"Shhhh," I said rubbing his back soothingly. "Its ok, I have you back. I wont let anything else happen to you."

I felt tears well up in my eyes as I looked around the room at the others.

"I'll explained everything later," I told Dean, knowing he was the one who had asked the question. "Right now, I would like to be alone with my brother."

Nobody moved at first, just stood there staring at me. Nobody said or did anything until Rachel spoke up.

"We need to talk to you guys," She said looking at Sam, Dean, and Cas.

"Even me?" Cas asked.

Rachel and Aliana shared a glance and then nodded with a small shrug.

"Ok," Dean said.

Dean came over to me and leaned down close to my ear.

"If you need me, we'll be in Sam's room," He said and then laid a gentle kiss on my forehead. "Nice to see you again, buddy." He ruffled Jason's hair playfully, putting a small smile on his lips.

Dean looked at me again and then finally followed everyone out of the room, letting the door shut quietly.

"Ash?" Jason asked in a small voice.

"Hmm?" I hummed, still rubbing his voice.

"I'm sorry," He said.

I pulled back slightly to look him in the eye.

"Jason, sorry for what?" I asked, searching his eyes.

"For letting you down," His voice broke as he spoke, breaking my heart in a million different pieces.

"Don't say that," I scolded slightly. "You have never let me down and never will. No matter what you do or say, you are my brother and I will always love you. There is nothing that you have done since you were kidnapped that you have done wrong."

A tear ran down his cheek and he buried his face in my shirt.

"I let them control me, Ashley, I let them get the better of me and I almost killed you," He sobbed.

"That's not your fault," I told him. "You cant control what they did. They are powerful demons who know what they're doing. If anything, you doing that was probably a good thing."

"How is almost murdering your big sister a good thing?" Jason exclaimed as he sat up.

"If you didn't do what they wanted, they would have killed you," I said truthfully.

His eyes widened and his jaw dropped.

"But I thought I was their ransom to get you to them?" He asked.

I shrugged.

"You were, and I'm sorry for that," I said, giving him a tight hug. "But they would have found something else that would get me to them. Killing you would have done the trick quite nicely, and they knew it."

Jason closed his eyes for a moment.

"I still feel like I should have done more to do something," He admitted.

I shook my head and held him close to me, rubbing his back again.

"Lets just forget about it, yeah?" I asked quietly. "Your back, your safe."

We were quiet for a moment.

"Ash?" Jason asked, breaking the silence.

"Hmmm?" I hummed.

"Can you sing me the song?" He asked.

"The song?" I asked quietly.

He nodded against my chest, too tired to move too much.

"Ok," I said gently.

For some reason, his favorite song he likes me to sing to him is Carry On My Wayward Son by Kansas. Its a good song, but strange for a 10 year old to love to fall asleep too.

I cleared my throat and got a little more comfortable with Jason still wrapped in my arms.

"Carry on my Wayward son," I sang quietly and gently.

I heard the door open and looked up to see Dean come in. He stopped near the foot of the bed, knowing Jason was almost asleep and that I was awake. He stayed quiet.

"They'll be peace when you are done," I continued to sing gently. "Lay your weary head to rest, don't you cry no more."

Dean watched me carefully, never taking his eye off me. The look he was giving me was like he was trying to understand the song in more than one way.

"Once I rose above the noise and confusion. Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion. I was soaring ever higher, but I flew to high. Masquerading as a man with a reason, my charade is the event of the season and if I claim to be a wise man, it surely means that I don't know."

I noticed that Jason was past out and knowing that Dean needed to talk to me, I carefully disentangled myself from my brother and followed Dean out of the room.

"We need to talk about a couple things, but first things first," He said stopping outside in the hall. "What happened at the factory? You just ran off."

I stayed quiet for a moment, biting the inside of my cheek, thinking about my answer.

"Ashley," Dean said, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"I was scared," I said honestly.

His eyebrows furrowed together in confusion.

"Why were you scared?" He asked, stepping a little closer to me.

I shrugged.

"I had just died and then I was alive," I said. "I saw things, I felt things, I got scared so I ran off, but then I got more scared."

"What did you see?" He asked, sounding concerned.

I quickly told him how I had been in the darkness with Death and how he felt like a long time friend. I told him everything that I had seen, felt, and thought while I was considered dead. Dean looked slightly pale when I finished talking.

"Now, I feel super uncomfortable in the dark," I admitted.

Dean wrapped his arms around me, feeling bad for me.

"I thought I had lost you permanently," He said quietly.

I hugged him tightly, needing some comfort.

"Oh, and there's another thing," He said pulling back to look me in the face.

"What?" I asked.

I don't know if it was just me, but he looked a little nervous to tell me.

"What is it Dean?" I asked, curiosity lacing my voice.

"Madeline escaped."

(A/N: Ok, so I know you've all been curious about the baby and they're relationship and all, but dont worry, a chapter is coming up soon about it. I have my reasons why I'm holding it off and all. Oh and sorry for the tear jerker chapter, I almost cried while writing this...IM NOT OK!!!)