Family Remains

"Leave Me Alone"

I stalked over to the three of them and stood between John and the guys. I looked from the three of them.

"You're all adults, why can't you act like one?" I questioned angrily.

I didn't even give them time to answer my question.

"This is life and you have to stop trying to go against it! Just take it as it is and stop fighting."

I turned to Same and put my hands on my hips.

"You have to stop fighting your father," I snapped. "He may have made a few bad choices in his life, choices that involved you and you didn't approve of, but big deal. It's the way parents are, they are here to make your life hell and make it hard for you. You just have to deal with. You have to stop arguing with him about every little thing. I know it pissed you off that he wasn't always there and that he missed holidays and birthdays, and all the father-son things that he was suppose to do. I know that you don't like the way he raised you, but its in the past, so get over it and move on."

I rounded on Dean.

"Dean, stop being 'Daddy's Little Soldier'," I snapped at him.

He gave me a look of complete disbelief and anger. He was surprised at what I was saying and that I was saying it to him.

"I know inside that you're mad at him too for the way he made you guys grow up, stop denying it. You don't have to do every little thing that he tells you to do. You're a grown man that can make your own decisions and live your own life. Yes, I know hunting is your life and that John is the reason for that, doesn't mean you follow his every command. I don't like the way Sam always acts towards him but you have to admit, he has a point to most of the things that he says."

I paused and watched him.

"You have to learn to listen to your father but do it your way and putting your own opinion to it," I finished and turned to John.

I glared and raised my right hand, pointing at him with an accusing finger.

"And you," I snapped at him. "You have to stop being such a hard-ass. They may be your sons but they are just as stubborn and stupid as you sometimes. You but-heads most of the time because of this and it just makes everything just as hard for you guys to get along. They are your sons, you are suppose to be there for them and help them through times exactly like this."

I point down at my stomach so that he understand.

"You don't, I repeat, you don't tell them it's wrong and to get rid of it or something along those lines," I continued. "This is their life, this is my life, I will do as I please without your input. Doesn't mean you get on Dean's ass about me being pregnant. If you had an issue about it you should have came to me. I know the dangers by keeping the baby, I've already thought about everything. You don't think that I have? I know what I'm doing and you have to trust my judgement and the fact that Dean is on my side about it all. I can handle myself especially since that I have more than just Dean watching my back. Now, if you excuse me, I'm going inside."

I turn around and then stopped.

"Oh, and Ellen says hi," I say to John.

I suddenly have the feeling that I was going to throw up so I start running towards the house. Once up the stairs and in the front door, I ran towards the bathroom and slammed the door shut. I threw up everything that had been in my stomach.

I heard a knock on the door and the door handle start to jiggle.

"Ash, please, open the door, its Dean," His voice sounded muffled behind the door.