Lisa's confessions

Chapter 8

Miracles on miracles -Maverick City Music

All my life I've been carried by grace
Don't ask me how'cause I can't explain
It's nothing short of a miracle I'm here
I've got some blessings that I don't deserve
I've got some scars but thats how you learn
It's nothing short of a miracle I'm here

I think it over and it doesn't add up
I know it comes from above

I've got miracles on miracles
A million little miracles
Miracles on miracles
Count your miracles
One, two, three, four I can't even count'em all

You held me steady so I wouldn't give up
You opened doors that nobody could shut
I hope I never get over what You've done
I wanna live with an open heart
I wanna live like I know who You are
I hope I never get over what You've done

It's not a coincidence and its not luck
I know it comes from above

I've got miracles on miracles
A million little miracles
Miracles on miracles
Count your miracles
One, two, three, four I can't even count'em all

Miracles on miracles
A million little miracles
Miracles on miracles
Count your miracles
One, two, three, four I can't even count'em all

I can't even, I can't even count'em all
I can't even, I can't even count'em all
I can't even, I can't even count'em all
One, two, three, four I can't even count'em all

I almost came face to face with death. The gunshot was the ultimatum of my last breath. The vision is as clear as the Sun, my soul ready to detach from my body. Death could not hold me down. It was not my time yet. The devil smirked with his head bowed down holding the shoulder of the oponent. But God refused with my life. Used the unforeseen to take the bullet for me. My very own dog. It's unexplainable right?

Who am I that you love me so much? Who am I that you saved me? Even when I am not deserving , you love me unconditionally. I always get stuck in how I feel so I am giving you the wheel because you know the road that I need to take. This is not a coincidence, It is indeed a miracle.

You defeated the devil once again and me being alive is proof of your greatness. I can imagine the heveans and hell at war fighting for my life. At the end of it all, you are my conqueror. My light and my fortress. Thank you Lord for the grace of being alive today.

I hurl my body on to my bed and release a huge sigh. I'm still feeling a bit shaky but I'm a strong girl. I'll live. My face feels irritable because of the dry tears and dry lips. Heart still recovering from this shocking event that took place. Heartbeat after heartbeat, easing after confirming that I am safe. My brain almost can't take it as I have so many unanswered questions. Just the thought of losing my life, frightens me.

To think I disliked Socks and animals in general. God knew what he was doing when he created animals. My thoughts are disturbed by my phone ringing. I check the caller ID and It's Selena. Sigh. I don't think I am in my right mind to talk to her right now. I'm a very selective listener and she's most likely to tell me something stupid. I ignore the call.

A foul smell of pee hits my nostrils. It hit me that I peed myself after the gunshot. Fuck! I'm going to have to wash my uniform.

I get up and run some water in the bath whilst taking out my uniform. I notice a trace of blood, dried up on my leg. My stomach cringes to the image of Sock's blood oozing out of his body. I close my eyes supressing the tears from falling taking deep breaths.