Baz
I had never realised that I would be alone. So, so alone.
The university is just so dull. Long corridors which are mostly empty and don't even get me started on the classes. I know just about nobody and neither am I interested in making new "friends".
What makes me truly sad is that- this is it. I'll go through this, earn a degree, get a job and then what? I live my life to the fullest and be the best me I have ever been? No.
Because then... what about Simon?
He's got nothing going on for him. Literally. Bunce is out there shaping her future too and the most he has done this week is walked till his bedroom.
I'm worried for him... I really am.
If I feel so alone here, in a building full of people, hiding a major part of me- being too engrossed in that- what does he do? It must be worse, so much, much worse.
Bunce is rarely ever home and I come to visit only if all my work is done, which is a once in a blue moon occurrence. I have started pushing back deadlines to make time for him and though it's affecting a LOT, I need to be there for him.
Everyday he finds a new thing to wallow about and everyday it's getting harder to deal with him. Just last Friday, he was clinging on to me like I was about to leave him for good.
'I lost everything.' He keeps chanting and Bunce and I just can't get him to stop. She remains on edge whenever we're around him and I try- I try so hard- to make him understand that not everything is lost.
Sometimes I feel like shouting, 'What did you have in the first place anyway?!'
But I know, I know, I shouldn't and so I don't.
I'm trying, I'm trying, I just keep on trying. Oh, Snow, how bloody long until you try too?
I get so scared and just so... sad. Am I failing him?
I shake the thoughts from my head and walk down the halls towards the next class. I'm anxious again. I should drop him a text.
Hey
Hope you're doing fine
A few minutes pass. I keep checking the chats. 5 minutes since I sent the message.
10 minutes now.
13.
18 minutes.
I check again. He's left me on read.
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Snowbaz Fanfic
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