Face To Face With The Devil

Chapter 7

More days passed of school, meaningless conversations with my dad and eating lunch with Sebastian, Alex, TJ, Oliver, Vi and Beca, ya it was a full lunch table, to say the least.

I still hadn't told Vi about mine and Sebastians kiss and I don't think I would ever at this point, I can't risk losing my best friend, Sebastian and I rarely talked we just sat across from eachother at lunch looking at eachother holding our gazes, Over the past few days Beca and Oli have been hanging out more by themselves, it's the cutest thing to watch.

School had just ended and I was going over to Alex's house to work on the history project, Beca was coming with me because the boys were all there and she wanted to see Oli, Vi couldn't come because she was meeting up with the guy she met at the party the other week, I still was not aware of his name.

Spending time with everyone made me lose sight of the guilt, but it also brought me closer to the guilt, you see from the moment my mom died I didn't do anything except repeat in my head that it was my fault, she gave up fighting because of me.

I would never know if that was the truth but I do know that for three months I put off going to see her because it's the only thing keeping me from breaking apart.

Not seeing her grave is almost keeping me from the truth that she's gone, I knew the time where I would have to go see her would come eventually but I wish I was more ready for it.

On the way to Alex's house I passed the cemetery, making me wonder if I should get it over with now or later, I chicken out and drove on. I felt like I needed to be in the right mindset to say what needed to be said, and right now I wasn't.

Driving over I tried to compose myself the best I could and try and look happy for everyone, I was still feeding them lies about my mom and my life before I came here, as long as they never knew the truth they would be safe.

"Look who it is, come back for another kiss?" "Hello Sebastian, keep it in your pants will you," he stepped aside and I walked into Alex's house with my backpack, "Faiths here," Sebastian yelled out and two pairs of footsteps came towards me, Alex tackled me in a hug making us fall onto the couch.

"Alex you fucker," "Faithy I missed you so much." He got off of me and we stood up, I took off my shoes and walked farther into his house "never call me Faithy." "But it describes you perfectly,"

"ya it sure does, pink and fluffy."

I glared at Sebastian for his comment and punched Alex on the arm, "ok ready to get started?" Alex said nothing and walked to the fridge to get something to eat I sat down beside Sebastian on the kitchen stools he was doing math homework, a shocked expression came over my face as I watched him fill out the questions at rapid speed "do you like math?"

He glanced up the sheet and looked me in the eye making me want to shrink down but I sat up tall and looked right back at him, "I don't like it I'm just good at it."

Ignoring his cocky statement I walked over to Alex and dragged him on the couch despite his resistance, we needed to write more than one sentence.

"Sit." "Faith please don't make me do this," he pleaded making me smile, "Alex come on." We were begging eachother to do the opposite, "we will split the work and then when we're done we can go get ice cream." He reluctantly slumped down on the couch grabbing his notebook and opened his computer compiling to my request.

After thirty minutes Beca came by and she and Oli went outside to the deck to work on their homework, Sebastian and TJ were playing Call of duty distracting Alex from helping me "Alex if you look up one more time I will tie you're head down and make you finish the whole project tonight by yourself."